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Name:: Kevin Tan, Vin, Tan, Kev, Kebin Boi, Shin, Kevie-kun, etc etc..
D.O.B:: 23rd March 1990
Horoscope Sign:: Aries
Chinese Zodiac:: Horse
Email:: lone_redwolf76@hotmail.com
Location:: BSB / KL
School:: Chung Hwa- SRS Datuk Simon Fung- Maktab Nasional- St.George's School- LKW
Hometown:: Kota Kinabalu?
Places I'd like to visit:: I'd love to go around the world if I have the chance.
Loves:: #1 MinMin!, Friends, Food, Drawing, Anime, Reading, Sleeping, Sarcasm, Chatting, Music, Writing, etc..
Fav. Colors:: Silver, Red, Grey, Black, Blue

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Monday, May 31, 2010

Crisis

During crisis, some people retire into logic and try to look at things from a perspective. Some people prefer to tear themselves apart to look at the root of things. Some people turn to religion, some to science, some to love, some lock themselves away in solitude to escape their problems. I don't know what I should do anymore. Looking at it from an objective point of view, I guess it means I'm being put to the test. Well, I need to reassess my life and my relationships with people from this point on, before I lock myself away from all the people that I care about.

I have not slept peacefully the past few weeks. My soul is somewhere out there, and I'll get it back somehow sooner or later.


it's 9:30 AM now

Friday, May 28, 2010

Lifehouse - Everything



Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

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I wish I could be with you right now.


it's 1:30 AM now

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Current Tasks

3D

-Correction for assignment 1.
-Assignment 2 at 70-80%. Compile and merge all projects, animate camera and render.
-Burn all assignments into DVD.

Multimedia Minor

-Compile things needed : Flour, Costume, Ink, Paper.
-Plan shot list.
-Shoot Friday.
-Edit video. Show progress.

Multimedia Major

-Perform VA, edit.
-Add in music, smooth transitions out, credits. Render.
-Interactive website: Sketch, Vectorize, Code in Flash.
-Journal.

Design Management

-Compile Research and analyze remaining topics, perform correction to existing content, due coming Thursday.
-Was appointed leader for final assignment: Value management
-Write questionnaire, get at least 10-2o responses.
-Either do a 3D mockup or Photoshop. 3D is preferred option due to animation capabilities.
-Video shooting for Value Management. Present ASAP.
-Group and individual report for Value Management.

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How would you like to be in my shoes right now? I have 1 week left to do all these. At best I have 1 more week extension. That's about it.


it's 11:29 PM now

Trends and Individuality : A Rant.

At the moment that I am typing this blog, maybe a hundred, or even a thousand people are trying to start new trends. But what starts trends? Individuals. People who are at the peak or the edge of the tipping point. People who are responsible of carrying the first strain of a viral effect that may take over the globe.

That being said, can everything or anything be popularized and made trendy? Perhaps.

So what makes and individual unique and able as a trend-setter? Some people think that they stand out of the crowd, because they do not follow the crowd. But merely that is not enough to be someone responsible for a global tipping point.

Nowadays, it's hard to find truly unique individuals. Because most people now are influenced by something or someone, and perhaps that thing or person who influenced them was influenced by something and someone else before, etc. It's a never ending chain of influence. The music you listen to, the clothes you wear, the way you put your hair up in the morning, all these have been carried along by other people and passed on to you, whether you realize it or not.

So what's unique? I suppose you can say a person who takes something that is already made, changes it and makes it his or her own thing can be considered unique. People who create evolution are at the leaders of a revolution. I suppose these people are trend setters.

But of course despite people being like people, everyone is susceptible to peer pressure. Most humans are weak willed, lacking discipline or self control. You will succumb to trying /buying/achieving what your peers claim to be 'freaking awesome and dope'. But then again of course this doesn't apply to everyone. I'll assume at this point that 80% of the world are people who merely following trends not realizing that there's another 20% of the world who start these trends. A trend, regardless of good or bad, is still a trend. For instance how most kids these days are more promiscuous because someone gave the 'OK' to have sex in their circle of friends. If a 13 year old kid walks up to you and told you he 'totally got laid last night', and if you're 13 as well, most like the scenario will go as follows:

Your ego sets in and tells you its wrong to have sex because you don't know what love is and you don't wanna hurt someone.

Your id tells you to screw your ideals and just do it anyways because you can have mind blowing orgasms and tell your 'war stories' to someone later and it's gonna be cool, so you begin contemplating.

And then your superego kicks in last and puts some imaginative scenarios in your head, giving you a good reason to go get laid. Maybe make up a sob story about having cancer or something like that.

Lastly, you either do it, or don't. I'm guessing most people will go do it at this point, or waste time contemplating and then going ahead with it anyways in the end. Best case scenario would be sticking to your ideals, but lets think reality, who does that nowadays? You can fight for individuality, trying to be special, but truth is, there is truly nothing really unique in the world anymore.

Unless of course, we're talking about something out of this world.

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So what about us designers? Where do we stand? As creators of something new? Or people who make use of what's given to us and merely giving it a new identity? Or are we just people who follow the trends and try to ride the wave while its high? I don't know. I'm lost there...why don't you tell me 5 years from now?


it's 3:01 AM now

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Simple Plan - Save You




Take a breath, I pull myself together
Just another stair until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear you voice it's drowning in whispers
It's just skin and bones, it's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If I only I could find the answer to help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up 'cause I'll be waiting
If you fall you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer to take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you, I want you to know
I wish I could save you

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Just a little something. Dunno why but it kinda suits my mood right now. Song triggers something deep inside of me. Hmm..


it's 8:38 PM now

Friday, May 21, 2010

Sleepless.

So I just went down to refill my drinking water supply. Can't sleep. Had a long week. Maybe my body is malfunctioning, heh. Right now I'm just feeling bitter because most people are having their holidays now. Well, that's just me. I had a long and tiring week after all. Can't blame me for having residual anger leftover from some shithole incident that happened this week.

Hmm. I don't know what else to say. I've this feeling where I just need to get up and hit someone maybe just to feel better about myself. There's a couple of people I would like to deck, but too bad they're too far away. That's right. I might've become a sadist after being so bitter a long time. It's not that I'm not happy with my work, or my work is making me unhappy. But circumstantial things happen here and there that affect me and just tick me off. Although I won't expect people to just understand that. Sometimes there are things you can and cannot say, because it might affect others as a whole.

So..what else is there to do? Bottle it up. That's right. But that makes things more difficult. The risk is high. The line is drawn thinner now. That is to say, if I ever see you around, I will grind my fists into your ribs so hard you'd want to puke. Hmm. Too bad you don't read my blog. I would feel much happier if I could threaten you in the open.

Ah well. I can't sleep. There's too much going on in my mind. I hope my planned vacation goes well. It's the only thing that's keeping me going right now.

I just have to say this though. I hate fuckers who love to intervene into other people's relationships and make things rocky between two really nice people who have a nice thing going just because they're bitter for not having a nice relationship. I want to destroy these kinds of people, if I ever met them in real life. Can't leave people alone? Itching to be killed? Don't let me catch you..

I'm gonna cool off and soak in some 3D polygons..and probably catch some sleep..


it's 4:27 AM now

Sunday, May 09, 2010

I'll take all the pain myself. Cheers.


it's 5:30 PM now

Sunday, May 02, 2010

Songlist

This is for my reference, but do enjoy the songs. I don't know where else to put these before I forget them.











it's 5:38 AM now