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Name:: Kevin Tan, Vin, Tan, Kev, Kebin Boi, Shin, Kevie-kun, etc etc..
D.O.B:: 23rd March 1990
Horoscope Sign:: Aries
Chinese Zodiac:: Horse
Email:: lone_redwolf76@hotmail.com
Location:: BSB / KL
School:: Chung Hwa- SRS Datuk Simon Fung- Maktab Nasional- St.George's School- LKW
Hometown:: Kota Kinabalu?
Places I'd like to visit:: I'd love to go around the world if I have the chance.
Loves:: #1 MinMin!, Friends, Food, Drawing, Anime, Reading, Sleeping, Sarcasm, Chatting, Music, Writing, etc..
Fav. Colors:: Silver, Red, Grey, Black, Blue

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Monday, August 31, 2009

Sometimes.

"We only see two things in people. What we want to see, and what they want to show us." -Harry Morgan

At this rate, I'm seeing nothing much, since well, not like there's a whole truckload of 'people' for me to see. Hurray for loneliness. +1 to my Independence stats. Alone at breakfast, alone at lunch, alone at dinner, laughing alone. I need my girlfriend here, seriously.


it's 3:01 PM now

Thursday, August 27, 2009

..portfolio in the making. Hmm. And I'm looking for particular books at the moment..

Someone, get me these books, if you can. All by the same author, Jeff Lindsay.

Darkly Dreaming Dexter.
Dearly Devoted Dexter.
Dexter in the Dark.
Dexter by Design

Yes, book titles may sound gay. But then again, don't judge a book by its cover (or title). If you get it for me, you have my gratitude, and probably much more. I doubt that its gonna be easy to search for the last 2 books. There's another one not out yet..but I'm looking forward to it.


it's 2:37 AM now

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

My eyes cry tears of blood, my heart screams but I don't say a word.

You make your life what it is.
You're in control of the decisions you make.
You're in control of your life.
You don't control other people.
You can't.
You can't control the emotions and actions of others.
If people want to screw your life, they will if they can.
The only thing you can do, is swallow it, take it, and move on.
You're allowed a few moments to swear, scream and complain.
After a while, it makes no difference.
There's a lot of ways to live.
There's a lot of ways to think.
You can think of how to live.
Or you can live to keep thinking.
We all hurt. We all bleed. We're never alone.
We have friends. We have family. Maybe it helps to open up to someone.
People blame. Because its easier to do so.
Blame life. Blame the world. Blame the people.
Because imperfections of others are easier to spot.
But what of our own?
If people do shit, then they deserve shit.
You don't need to dish the shit out.
Let someone else do the dirty work.

Hmm. My life is rubbish now. I believe it is. I hope it will turnaround soon. I'm lacking in patience. A lot of pent up anger, rage, fury, bitterness. Although, on the positive side, amongst all my friends, I'm going down the career path I planned earlier, I have the only girl I want back in my life, and I still have family and friends. Well..that's...3 out of, what now, a couple of hundred things lacking? I'm stumped, and I'm fucked. Right now, if you think you're fucked, make a checklist, and be thankful for the things you're not fucked for. Especially if you -still- have a chance to make things right.

Before you're tired of living, and have given up on living.
Bent on dying.
Remember.
The people who are on the death bed.
The people who have terminal cancer, months, weeks, days to live.
Soldiers in the frontline of battle.
Fighting to live.
People you know and don't know about.
Think about what they'd give to trade places with you.
Dying, is not as simple as you think.
Neither is living, but many would give to live.
Try putting your life on the line, live on the edge, if you feel nothing, then maybe you're better off dead and donating organs to people who need them.

Well..prolly said enough. I'm tired. More than you think. Maybe you're tired of me. I won't blame you. I can't blame you. But if there's something you want to say, please say it to me. I can't take silence. It fills my head with things I'd rather not remember, rather not think about. So, if you will..talk to me, and don't let my problems drown your voice out. Good night everyone.


it's 2:58 AM now

Monday, August 24, 2009

Judging Others

We all judge people by appearances. That's something undeniable. The 'don't judge others' bit, usually used when someone is worried others would judge them the same way, and afraid they're not up to the standards. Which isn't too bad sometimes. What contributes to our appearances though? That's simple..2 Gs : God and Genetics.

Firstly, there are elements of our appearance that's NOT within our control. That would be ethnicity, age, skin colour, general, or rather genetic shape and sizing. Not unless you have loads of dough and are willing to proceed with plastic surgery of some kind, then, by all means.

So what is within our grasps of control? That would be clothing, hairstyle, hygiene, and body language, to name a few. These reflect the personal choices, and these choices are a reflection of their outlook and attitude on life. Those attitudes then define the individual self.


Sometimes we are told, 'Don't Judge a book by its cover'. But generally speaking the book's cover does give some insight to what the contents would be. Let's say you can't read and are looking for a book about curtains, would you look for a book whose cover illustrates aeroplanes or monkeys?

You ought to understand. When you give someone a set of standards, and expect them to live by it, vigorously, are you prepared to be given another set of standards by your peers as well? Some people are content with their own selves. That's fine. Some people are not so content with their own selves, and are keen on changing. That's fine too. But pushing the limit is when you want others to change for your own satisfaction. Especially if its something not within control. Would you be able to change something that's integrated into you, that easily?

So..know when to judge, and what to judge. Or be prepared to be judged for your shortcomings as well. Other solutions? Go blind. Otherwise have the whole of humanity wear the same clothes, the same masks, have everyone go for surgery so that they'd appear the same. Judging people and their appearances may be an inborn instinct, but it can be put under proper control...by being tactful and minding other people's feelings.

Just my two cents of the day. Had a bad one. Nights.


it's 9:09 PM now

Saturday, August 15, 2009

RM750 and Single Lifestyle

Well, so far, things are so-so. I won't say I'm having the time of my life being back here. Things are hectic and confusing. Come September, I'll be staying alone. Yes, that's right. No more housemates. Not that I moved out. See..during the holidays, my cousin Gerald, and classmate Sean, moved out. Then, I received news that Ang is going back to Brunei to study. Days ago, same news, this time, Kenny is the one to break it to me. Kenny is returning next week. Lol. Talk about last minute shit. Ang is returning on 28th.

So..starting from August 28th, I'm staying alone. Talk about 'single' lifestyle. Rent is how much? Rm750. No negotiations with landlady. At all. Compare that to my usual RM150. That's 5 times the rent I use to pay. Plus living expenses, art and printing expenses...blah. Contract is under my name and lasts till February next year. IF I'm still in KL next year, I doubt I will be staying at this place..although I'm a little hopeful that Min will come and join me. Well, there's still the chance of going overseas, although at the moment I'm unsure where, since I've never really paid a visit to the marketing department yet. Lots of questions, no time to ask them.

Sometimes I don't know what to think lol. It's so easy to have the pressure put on me. Well..we'll see I suppose. This year can't get any shittier than it already has, can it?

Well..going down to Wangsa to meet Larrie tomorrow, with the Big Thing. Thin Thing wants to stay home to fap apparently..no intention of leaving his nest. I hope this semester won't be a bitch, because I have enough housing and monetary issues already. Well, time to catch some sleep..need to wake up on time. Night folks.


it's 2:41 AM now

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Countdown,,

..to a new semester. Well, it might or might not be the last semester I have here, but that all depends. I'm still thinking on where I should do my final year. Do I want to risk it in Perth or London? Or should I stay here if Min comes? Hmm, its not like my parents can't afford my education, but I guess it all boils down to me. Decisions decisions..

Well, at any rate. My new modules are:

1) Design in Context
2) Consumer Behaviour
3) Typographic Application
4) Animation & Motion Graphics

All being advancements of my previous modules except #4, which is something new. I'm hoping there won't be anymore web designs this semester..I think I'm not cut out for manual HTML and CSS coding ~.~

Well, I'm not looking forward to Typo that much unless they switch out the lecturer. I don't fancy the guy much, ever since he came last sem.

Hmm, Fucker #1 Kenny is coming back tonight, but I'm not sure if he's making a straight trip here or to his sister's place. I still have Hao's company for today, until Big Thing comes back tomorrow.

I'm waiting for my PS2 to come back from the repair shop, and for some new games to be out for the DS. That and I have a lot of shit bills to settle.

Hum, I guess that's about it. I miss dear lots, but she's been busy there as well. <3


it's 6:06 PM now

Friday, August 07, 2009

The Voca People



Bloody awesome I tell you. Cute too XD Vocal singing, Acapella, and lastly Beatboxing!


it's 2:50 AM now

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Random

So..currently, technically home alone here.
Nothing much to do.
Been downloading old shows.
Results are out.
New modules are in.
Lastly...I wonder what I'm worth.
You decide.


it's 5:07 AM now