Shinocturne

Do you understand everything about everything? How do you pass your judgement? Is everything that you claim good, really good? No really. Sigh~ Disturbing me this is. Exams started today, Physics and Bio, I did pretty badly, as usual, but not in the sense that I don't have confidence at all. I DID study for Christ's sake, and its not last minute. Started a week before the exams.

Anyways, earlier today, right after the exams, I had to wait for my car to come..So I sat outside with a group of people. Two of them started a discussion about guys. I listened, but never said anything in particular. So, they say, most guys are bad. Most guys play girls for sex, most girls play girls for other things. Most guys are bastards. I admit, that is true. But being a guy myself, thoughts spurred into my mind. I thought 'what about the girls who play guys for money? what about the girls who use guys for many different purposes?' If its okay for girls to play guys, and guys play girls, isn't it just the same? There is no right or wrong in this case. The 2 girls said, its okay, they are fine with girls playing guys, but they hate guys who play girls. Male and female, both are humans, both have feelings, both have hearts, both sin, and both commit mistakes. Even the best of people commit mistakes. They kept rambling on, and on, about taking revenge on guys, about how to play them back. I refused to listen anymore so I isolated myself away from them along with another friend. @@"..I know this is a bit..Um, I dunno the word for it, one-sided? Being a guy myself, obviously I would side with guys? But put yourself in our shoes. Think for a brief moment. Do you know the WHOLE truth? You know a bit of a thing, out of something, say 2/5 of a story a friend told you. How are you to pass judgement on that story if you haven't heard the whole of it? So yeah, I guess...thats something to think about. I felt the hurt, the anger, when they said..that its okay for girls to play guys..Eventhough, they MIGHT have been played, but to what extent that they put the blame on ALL guys, even those that have done NOTHING to them? I say nothing to them, or nothing much, because I suppose, I don't know the whole thing, maybe they've had experiences that cause them to have this feeling towards us guys? Yes, I suppose so. Haha, I hope I have not offended anybody with my ramblings >< I'm just rambling..its 8.16..I guess I'll go over these things again later..The net is closing, and I'm off to study once it does. Just needed to clear my mind off things for a bit. Once again, sorry if anyone felt offended. *zips mouth* Ciao~Thanks to all those who even bother to drop by my site..haha, layout WILL be changed soon, on Saturday perhaps, after the exams are over.

it's 8:20 PM now

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

What ever happened to Casper the FRIENDLY Ghost?

Anyways, continuing from my last entry. So that was Thursday, and Friday, erm..nothing much happened either I'm sure, same as Saturday, except the usual routine where its either me who goes to CHMS or Min comes over. But anyways, skip ahead a few days..Today.

Today, is probably the most horrible days I've experienced for the WHOLE year. Damn. Why? Why me? Why hasn't it happpened to anyone else? Damn again. (I'm pretty sure some of you know what I'm talking about) Okay so, all I have to do...is improve on my studies, and hope they let me off. If they are making excuses, I will be sure they will pay for it. Those bloody cheaters. Gah. Anyways, tommorow is Jo's REAL birthday, so Happy Advanced Birthday! (Not to mention its also Chris' g/f's birthday.) We're going to watch the Maid tommorow, I heard it was about the Gates of Hell opening and so on.

People are panicking, getting paranoid about tommorow and the day after tommorow, worrying about ghosts, being watched. To me its just creepy. Plain creepy, not saying its scary, but creepy. You know, something that makes your bulu stand all of the sudden when you hear these things(You know how good some people can describe stuff, so yeah) But my dad said something pretty amusing just now in the car, he said, what about the friendly ghosts, people are so busy worrying about the HUNGRY and EVIL ghosts, that not many people actually remember that some ghosts are FRIENDLY. They're just dead people. At least thats what he said. My dad also said, ghosts DO modernize, evidence? People burn different kinds of offerings to them nowadays. (Note: Go watch the movie 2002, nice nice XD Stephen Fung and Nicholas Tse starred in this) Stuff they burn include - phones, laptops, PCs, houses, cars, credit cards, and lots of other stuff, even junk food. (You DO know what I mean by burn right?) I also remembered vividly about something my mom said 'Napa tu Imam inda boleh halau tu hantu' Meaning why can't the Imam get rid of the ghosts? You know what she told us after we gave up? 'Sebab IMAM tu indak cukup IMAN' XD!!

So yeah, that concludes today's entry~ XD Might blog at DA again if I have the urge to. Right now its raining and Min's espeed cut her off, probably a safety thingie. Damn lightning >_> Oh well, all in all...today was okay-okay. A 50% - 50% thing. Happy Ghost Hunting people~ Just remember to keep your faith up and pray to god if anything happens.

it's 6:46 PM now

Monday, August 15, 2005

Oopsies~ ><

Sorry for the lack of updates, somehow, I managed to find some time and actually update this thing, I haven't rotated the song for a while either, I know its annoying, cuz some people don't really like listening to the songs I put up >< Anyways aside from that, this month has been both eventful and tiring at the same time, well, more tiring than the other month, since we have projects to handle now. 4 projects down, 3 more to go. At least I think so. I hope ALL goes well. The one that worries me the most for now is my Bio and Eco project.

Okay so back to some other stuff. XD Jo's advanced birthday celebration! T'was fun! Excellent! Lots of stuff happened. Right after school I hung around and waited for my dad, then went home bathed and went to CHMS to pick Min up. We wanted to walk to the bus station but hitched a bus on the way. (late already! ><

Arrived at Gdg arund 3.15? I think, and then met up with the others at Swensons, signed Jo's birthday card and we went around the Mall doing other stuff! Played pool with the guys, I think I did pretty well, since I haven't played like in centuries. XD And right after that we went back to school (all cramped up in one car!) It was realllllllllly funny haha, since well, people stared at us in the car. There were..11 people in the car I think. People gaped, gawked, gasped and their eyes seem to want to pop out when they saw us! Min went home, and some of us went to con class practice, and right after that Min came, and Zy's mom was nice enough to drive us to Jo's house. Funny~ XD Her mom came out of the car after she said that she wanted to leave and stole a sausage hahaha, and I think the guy who placed the sausage on the bbq-er must have wondered where his sausage went~ Rightz, then we went up to the computer room played around and whatnot, like kids, really..haha, went down to eat, and back up again, where AJ pranked a few ppl on MSN using Chee Yung's account, by acting gay. >_>" Went down to watch them cut the cake and then go play Fatal Frame, in the dark XD Fun fun fun~ Then AJ and Manzy took turns playing Tekken, and after that had to ciaoz home T_T...Jo dropped us off at home, and I found my lines on, went online for a bit and then slept!

*TBC* Can't update now..almost no time >< So, till later then!

it's 8:05 PM now

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Things, lots of things..

Have you ever looked back into the past? I have. Things I don't want to remember, things I have to remember, and things I decide never to forget. I'm not sure why I'm talking about these things, but somehow the subject was knocked into my head. In the past, if you had not done a particular action, somehow the present might be altered. If I was a better person, some people might not dislike me now, if I had studied harder, I would've topped my class, if I had not found you, my friends..I wonder what would become of me right now. Haha, strange isn't it? Its a repetitive circle of questions, and I'm not sure what the answers are. Things I don't want to remember..like, embarassing moments, pop into my head at times, making me smile, once in a while..and things I have to remember are like people's birthday's, anniversaries, etc..things I decide never to forget..haha, such as the moments where I met the few most important people in my life..Sad, happy, things..lots of things are connected, well, in a way, don't you think so? Its almost similar to how a scent fits a person, how a certain piece of music suits a person..Lol..I might be rambling..I dunno, effects of alcohol perhaps? Haha, well that was two days ago, don't think its still that effective..I'll blog about the events of these past few days at DA when I have the time, for now, this is it here. Enjoy.

it's 12:10 PM now

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

-Struggles-

So its been a while since I last updated this journal. Its Wednesday today, and its a so so day. I'm still struggling with a few things, that includes school, and a few..personal problems with my dad.. Its nothing big, but all the same, I don't want anyone else involved. Eventhough its definitely not healthy to keep things to one's self all the time. Here's my brief and short things-to-do list for this week.

-Go to Jess's house tommorow and bake, watch Jungle, etc. Top priority, this is. XP
-Avoid any hungry dogs at all cost.
-Perhaps send my PC to maintenance or something.
-Catch up with my sleep.
-Complete half my projects, if possible. Still can't find anything for Physics though, which is bad, and my half-retarded group members for A.Maths want to do a last minute topic change. Guess what, presentations in a week.
-Help out my group members with Eco, D.Maths and Bio project.
-Do some revision
-Last but not least..resolve my personal issues with my dad..

Another thing is, I'd like to apologize if I haven't been hanging around much with my dear friends in school >< Sorry, once more. I know this entry isn't long, so sorry again, I'm going to do a further update at DA after a few more things happen, would be boring to blog about nothing, right? See you guys around~ Thanks for tagging! And for some reason, my neighbour's alarm won't stop ringing @@" Its getting annoying..

it's 7:31 PM now