Last night. I couldn't take it anymore. The reality of things is..harsh. I cried like a baby, then I slept like one. Till right now. I slept, ignoring all the negativity, all the evil thoughts, all the anger and loneliness that I've contained. A sleep without dreams. But of course, once I woke up, put my two feet on the ground, all those emotions came flooding back. I was bitter. Such is life. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, combed my hair, put on some decent clothes..and proceeded to meet my client for work.

Sometimes there's pleasure not knowing. Knowing hurts. Knowing can drive someone insane. I'd rather not know, but my nature is curious to begin with. When you're alone, your mind wanders, and as to what extend it wanders, I have no clue.

My patience is running on thin ice now. Very thin. If you think you can mess around with my feelings, no matter who you are, I will snap. If you think it's funny, or you think right now the state that I am in is bad enough, then you probably don't know me that well. Care, Calm and Consideration the 3Cs will be lost. Well, I'm just saying.

What I'm doing right now is trying to distract myself, on my own, with other things. Let's just say it takes a lot to take my mind off things. Well, whatever. I just have to be strong. There's still people who depend on me..regardless of my state of mind. Let's just hope all this negativity shall dissipate on its own, shall we?

I'm gonna start a separate blog soon..to host my work so far. Let's just say I'm starting an online portfolio. I should get to designing it soon..and coding. Sigh. Well, let the Red Wolf Howl..