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Name:: Kevin Tan, Vin, Tan, Kev, Kebin Boi, Shin, Kevie-kun, etc etc..
D.O.B:: 23rd March 1990
Horoscope Sign:: Aries
Chinese Zodiac:: Horse
Email:: lone_redwolf76@hotmail.com
Location:: BSB / KL
School:: Chung Hwa- SRS Datuk Simon Fung- Maktab Nasional- St.George's School- LKW
Hometown:: Kota Kinabalu?
Places I'd like to visit:: I'd love to go around the world if I have the chance.
Loves:: #1 MinMin!, Friends, Food, Drawing, Anime, Reading, Sleeping, Sarcasm, Chatting, Music, Writing, etc..
Fav. Colors:: Silver, Red, Grey, Black, Blue

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Go Fuck Yourself.


it's 10:12 PM now

Strange Rant

The world revolves around you, is sometimes a fun concept.

However, thinking that it is fine for the world to be put into ruin for your sake, is nothing but a selfish thought.

People who shift in and out of your life whenever it is convenient for themselves. People who take advantage of your kindness and then leave you to rot when you need someone to back you. People who seek your attention when they are in need and when you're not needed you're left alone to ponder "Why is it this way?"

But no, luckily, this is bearable. What goes around comes around. Some people aren't as weak as you think they are. Fighting battles and wars everyday, doing what they can to survive, to shape the blank future with their hands. These people are not to be underestimated.

In a game of poker, if you have the winning card in your hand, would you be cautious on how to play it, sacrifice it, risk it or destroy yourself?

Sigh, I dunno. I'm randomly ranting. I'm having a bad day. Clients getting on my nerve. Not feeling well. The only texts and calls I'm getting are from my clients. Other than that...nobody else. Well, it's to be expected. My glasses broke. I need a new pair. Bleh. I wish my desktop was here. That'd take my mind a load of things. Then I can ignore the devil's whisperings and not feel like I'm about to implode on myself.

Well. Whatever. Life goes on. Work work work.


it's 9:39 PM now

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Project Red Wolf

New world. New things. New experience. Well, it's been a while I've been stuck in my comfort zone. Time to start something. Well, I'm not sure how it's gonna go but here it is. One of my projects. =O
I've completed a project for BriD EX (Brunei International Defence Exhibition) just a few days ago, and soon I'll be working on another for Pusat Ehsan. At least this time around I've got decent clients. =O Well, if you're interested in getting me to work for you, just leave a message on the tagboard. If it's under time constraint and depending on the difficulty of the job, I do require extra payment. That is all.

I'm doing all this to build up on my portfolio. Well, I still have a bunch of projects to initiate, but let's start small, shall we? Wish me luck!


it's 2:54 AM now

Friday, June 19, 2009

Well. Something rotten just came up in my mind. It's not worth talking about so I guess I'll head off to sleep. Still have trouble adjusting my sleep pattern.


it's 2:59 AM now

Long story short.

Guy next to me on plane.
Kept farting.
All the way.
2 Hours.
Without going to the bathroom.
He.
Nearly killed me.
Argh.

Am home.
Am tired.
Set up my 'nest'.
Got to see dear again.
Her hair is nice.
Me likes.
Family is fine.

Tired.
Sleep.
Tomorrow lunch.
Yay.
But, dear's busy.
So, boo.
Need to make plans.
G'nights.


it's 1:38 AM now

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Counting Down..

A few hours more.
I'll be able to see my family.
I'll be able to see you again.
It's been a while.
How much has changed?
What will the air be like?


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Just finished packing. Now transferring stuff from HDD to PC and laptop to HDD etc etc. Too lazy to format. Don't have my XP CD with me anyways. Without realizing it, it's been 6 months since we got back together. Time sure flies. Well, I'll see you again in a few hours. =)

Night folks. Will blog again when I arrive there.


it's 2:40 AM now

Monday, June 15, 2009

I'm ignored when I'm not needed.
Let me go home in peace.
I just wanna go home..and be with you.

Edit - 400th post. Lol. Not that anyone cares.


it's 3:06 AM now

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Today I...

...feel like I wanna be a parent. But of course those feelings are just half-baked. I don't have the urges to have kids yet, eventhough I like them. Well, some of them. Not financially able either.

Went to Midvalley today. Met with Larrie, Roger and his gf. On my side was Ang, Sean and Ah Hao.

Well, details for Dvtx.

I saw a lot of things today. There's this pair, husband and wife just casually walking around. The wife was pregnant and she was talking to herself (or her baby) and the husband was like pointing out the baby stores and saying what stuff to get and all, seemed sweet to me. Wish I had my camera, would've made a great shot. Too bad I'm leaving it at Larrie's, since he needs it for his assignment.

Then later a floor above, I saw a baby rolling around a huge huge bed. Well, they had bedroom stuff on sale, and apparently this lady left her baby on the bed. So cute. I think it was a girl. Haha, she was there and the people around were just watching until the shopkeeper told them off. Spoilsport.

Made me all fuzzy inside though. But a little lonely too. A lot of couples out today. Or maybe there's this many couples out everyday, just that I never seem to notice since I'm mostly cooped up at home. People holding hands, clinging onto each other, being playful and stuff. Lol, almost makes me feel like tearing up. I only get that like..seasonally. Haha, if you put it that way. Well, I'm having heartburns, so I'm gonna go off to bed now. Will be updating on my other blogs soon. Nights.


it's 12:33 AM now

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Owari

It's over. The semester I mean. It's time for some quality R and R. I look forward to going back. But first...issues to resolve here. Till' then.


it's 10:07 PM now

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Quote Analysis

"There is no fate but what we make.." - John Connor

I like this quote. But it's hard to follow. It's easy to say that you want to make your fate. But sometimes things don't just go the way you want. And sometimes life is just cruel. But, given the chance..if you haven't done all you can, then can you say that you've tried your best? You -think- you're out of options. But have you really gone through each one of them? Not just think it? All Talk and No Action..did you really fight for the future you want?

"The pen is mightier than the sword.." - Edward Bulwer Lytton

Another one. It means words sometimes hurts more than actions do. Sometimes...think before you spew something out. Whether it is online, or to someone's face. You won't know. You might've taken a chunk of someone's confidence away..or the feelings they had for you might've been damaged. Next thing you know, you could've murdered someone with your words. It's no surprise. Some people have been driven to suicide by mere words, especially in Korea.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."
-- Lao Tzu

The quote is self explanatory. It's apparently the 'mating' season (crude way to put it) all around. People hooking up faster than the speed of light. Next thing you know, they're all over each others throats. What happened to sorting things out? What happened to supporting each other? Trying to be an individual in a relationship? Things don't really work that way, unfortunately. Love takes two. Love by a single person without any return is called loneliness. Something I know pretty well.

Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain -- and most do. -- Dale Carnegie

This is probably me, lol.

You are where you are right now in your life because of the choices you have made and the actions you have taken. If you want to change your life, remember that change starts with you.
-- Jeffrey Keller

This. Very good. Why? Because it's easier said than done. But its something worth keeping in mind. Although change can come in many forms, good and bad. It depends I suppose.

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult. -- Seneca

And this. Been there a few times..

Appreciate what you have with you, before it's gone. You can never tell the unexpected. What may be there one day, may be gone the next. Life is fragile like that. If you love someone, tell them everyday. If you miss someone, tell them right away. Once they're gone, you'd regret all you've never said. --Author Unknown

We've heard this many times. But how many of us actually appreciate our lives fully? I know I don't..What about you?

Lastly..

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.
-- Author Unknown

To Min dear, I miss you..


it's 11:37 PM now

Numb

As time draws near to the dreaded moment, your senses sharpen. You are numb to fear. It is not confidence. You are not giving up either. You do not care for the outcome, because the progress is all that mattered. You've tried your best. Soon, rest in peace.


it's 12:03 PM now

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Gfy

Don't make a stressed out face when you have less work to do compared to me.

Don't make a stressed out face, when I'm the one doing the work for you.

I will hold you responsible, if anything goes wrong with my work.

Just because you can afford to be 'sambil lewa', don't put me in the same category as you.

For personal reasons, it's not -wrong-, but when others seek aid with the same method, it's -wrong-? Gfy.

Our semester ends in 3 days. I have 2 modules left. I have a -new- additional add-on to one of my assignments. How fucked up is that? First thing I hear when I get up today. Imagine that. So seriously, gfy.

Sometimes I find some people ludicrous, and also incredibly stupid. Inb4lrn2read.

And also..to Zy, my condolences for DumDum..may his feline soul rest in peace..Sorry to hear about it..Hope you manage to focus on your exams still.

Well, that about ends this post. I'm sick, and my temper is ye' high right now. I swear if I lose it I might as well get violent.


it's 9:44 PM now

Tired

It's official. I hate Typography Studies now. Hate it. At the end of this semester I've come from : "Oh it's definitely interesting, even if the lecturer is new, I think I'll enjoy it." to "Argh, the lecturer is making it worst everyday, how is this even related to typo?!"

Really. Tell me. How. Making a booklet. With packaging. And merchandise. Is anyhow related to typo at all? This sounds more like Design Studies from my early semesters.

There's typo and then there's the rest of marketing to do. You know what? I'm really tired.


it's 8:53 AM now

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Assignment Checklist

-1 Typography Booklet
-1 WebSite Design
-2 Web Design Journals
-1 Design Research Journal
-1 Design Research Slideshow
-1 Marketing Slideshow
-1 Design Research Proposal

+1 Marketing Presentation
+1 Marketing Group Journal
+3 Marketing Essays
+1 Typo Journal
+3 Typefaces to convert in Fontlab

Zzz...after the + ones are done, I'm free for the semester. Well..there's still the weekend. Thank God its all theory module assignment. Cept' for typo, that sucks. I hope my passport issue gets resolved soon. The other day I went and forgot my passport lol..Hum. Well, I hope my sem break goes well too. Turn my life around or something..can't wait to see dear~ <3


it's 3:02 AM now

Monday, June 01, 2009

ARGGGGH I shouldn't be complaining like a wuss, fk fk FK. GAH. NEED TO WAKE UP. FK. FK. Need a wake up slap argh. FK. I'm only freaking human. Sigh.


it's 1:22 AM now

It's that...It definitely is.

[Begin Rant]

Yours for mine.

Mine for yours.

I bet this post is confusing. Don't worry, it's meant to be. Haven't had a good day. Basically I'm rotting on my own over here. Tried to keep a positive mindset but that only lasted a while. I guess that's still better than nothing. I wonder, have you tried working so long your eyes feel like they're bleeding just from trying to keep them open? Have you put your every soul into your work which you actually find unsatisfactory but have no choice due to time constraint? Lol.

Just doing a little bit of ranting. Words are but mere words. Right? Well, right now my throat is all sore and dried up for some reason, and I've got a fucked up headache that's making high pitched ringing sounds on the right side of my skull. Oh it's great fun. I guess complaining is useless, lol. Pushing my negatives onto others is irresponsible after all. Heh. So all I've got is the blog.

Well I guess that's about all the ranting I can do. Anymore and I'd be hurtful and insensitive. Here's to hoping my patience stays put.

A little attention wouldn't hurt sometimes...

[/End Rant]


it's 1:02 AM now