Look at you, a dull edge not sharpened,
Precious memories all forgotten.

The melody goes on without you, 1-2-3,
Don't know how to set myself free.

Seeing you again, the world becomes right.
But all comes crashing, when you leave my sight.

I have the mask of the villain on right now,
Can't free myself from this role anyhow.

Expectations broken and shattered my dream,
Tears roll down my cheeks like a stream.

Bottle of feelings can't hold no more,
Being so patient, my heart is sore.

Tired of being so numb and fake,
Smiling for your goddamn sake.

My heart fades to black after so long,
Can't even differentiate whats right and wrong.

Maybe you don't realize all the things I do isn't out of courtesy,
Yet you still can't even look at me, still thinking bout trash that can never be.

But I can't seem to release myself from this prison of walls,
And in the end I'm still the one that falls.

I can't do anything but stand still,
And wait at the promised place near the hill.

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T'night is a cold indeed. Don't feel very well, but my mask is still intact. Unfortunately, no, not a facial mask. I'd be done in before I wear one of those I think. Head's a bit not right, I think my stress levels broke through the barriers. Truth be told, I've got plenty more reasons to be rather emotional and burning with rage right now, but I guess that story is better left untold.

Life is brilliant really. The universe chooses to drop a pile of load on me at this time. Not the best time to do that at all. I wonder what kind of crappy planetary alignment is causing this? Not that I believe in that anyways but yeah...

Well, I've been laying low a lot lately. Haven't talked much to people. Not feeling very talkative. Especially not when my mood is pretty rotten that I have the urge to bite a few chunks of meat off one or two particular person's shoulders..Well, they don't know who they are, so that's good.

Some people are really freakishly insensitive and have really low sense of sarcasm. They don't even realize when others are telling them to back off. I wonder how many hints they need before they get it...Hmm, well, enough about that.

Something else I don't get. Why on the freaking hell on earth do you want to be in the position that I'm in right now? To be quite honest, I'd much rather be happy and in peace, just that my situation doesn't help much and doesn't go well with what I want. You wanna be dumped in hell, and for no apparent reason? Dude, like seriously, you on crack or something? If you need attention, there are better methods you know..Like pulling off a heel flip kick on a skateboard in front a bunch of blondies. That'll get you what you want. For pete's sake, who in the hell does things like you? And I thought I was desperate.

Meh, I'm tired. But I ain't gonna sleep yet. I can't. Gonna run off and do something before I check into dreamland tonight. I hope I run into the people that I would so love to bite in my dreams and tear them limb from limb and rip them into shreds of meat that their parents won't recognize them...I may seem immature and insensitive, but thats not for you to decide.