Shinocturne

Take your bullshit and burn in hell. You, someone who has no guilty conscience and takes fun in stepping on other people while taking advantage of them with your friends. If you dare, prove me wrong. Until then, I hope you suffocate in your lies and cheats until the day you rot in the grave and nobody remembers you except the people you screwed with, who curse you to the very depths of hell even after your corpse gets devoured by maggots.

it's 3:16 AM now

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Hiatus

I'm announcing a temporary hiatus for my blog for the time being. Just too much stuff going on at the same time isn't doing me any good. So rather than bullcrapping all my negativity here, I feel it will be much more healthier for my dear readers that I bottle it up inside on my own and get rid of it on my own. *sarcasm* But no really, a lot of shit just happened.

I'm gonna be honest though. Having a lot of things going on, plus having a lot of work to do already, and on top of that, having a relapse of hellish nights is not a nice mix at all. I'm ready to bite at anyone who snaps even a little bit at my strings right now, so if I have offended you then well, I'm sorry? It's all I can afford to say right now.

To make matters simpler, I'm disappearing from your lives for a while until I get my own sorted out, so as to not clash with you or burden anyone else. I guess that would take a week or two. That means on MSN, via SMS, Facebook, Friendster, email, all unreachable. Unless of course you take the liberty to call me and I might just be touched enough to answer.

I know all the fancy philosophical ideas, I know all the consequences, I know all the right/wrongs and pro and cons in all that I've done, or whatever I've just said or am planning to do etc. Right now, my mental instability is very much obvious even to the people living with me...Therefore I can't trust my better sense of judgment right now, because I believe I'm much less tactful right now, or perhaps even more sarcastic and mental than before.

With that, I leave to calm myself, to make the wrong right, and bla bla bladi bla. You people take care and have a good life. Feel free to keep the tagboard lively while I'm gone.

it's 8:51 PM now

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Boredom.

ZOMG THE EARTH IS BE FALLIN'!!!??

it's 11:30 PM now

Tonight...

Things are simpler. Clearer.

I freaking miss her.

But things haven't gotten any easier.

it's 2:12 AM now

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Of Words and Masks

Words can kill.

Seriously.

Some people say a lot of crap.

Some people say a lot of meaningful stuff.

Some people say things that may seem viable and all.

But then again..

Half the things these people say, they don't take it to heart themselves.

So..

What's the point?

I don't know, why don't you tell me?

This is indeed theatrically amusing. When truth and facts are laid out, its discarded as trash-talk and insincerity (because we don't put ourselves in their shoes) and when its manipulated by some random dipshit, it becomes philosophical. (where they themselves are walking barefooted)

Which makes me wonder, why do I bother giving advices at all?

That's why..

If you catch my drift. 1280x800px. Enjoy.

it's 6:00 PM now

Red Tea and Sparta

Going out to class in a bit. Although today technically there shouldn't be any classes. Tomorrow's a holiday so the Spartan lecturer pulled our class to Tuesday. How-freaking-awesome. Meh. I finished designing my shopping bag along with redoing my packaging, so today will be the great shootout.

I wonder what's gonna happen to Malaysia today? For those of you who keep up with the news..you'll know what I'm talking about.

Anyways, off to enjoy some Red Tea before I head out to pick up my pictures from IoI.

Ciaos. Will update whenever I can. And hmm, I think Irene supposed to be arriving today? =O

it's 1:28 PM now

Friday, September 12, 2008

Sigh.

Eff me up, shoot me in a head, put me in a barrel and roll me down a hill into a cold lake.

Pound my head with a hammer till it bleeds and pour lime on it.

Rip my heart out, mess with my heartstrings.

Well, you get the point. I hate my life right now.

I wish your life was as screwed as mine.

Yeah I know, I'm evil. Probably.

But someone has to be.

it's 12:44 AM now

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Stuff.

In case you were wondering how my rejected works look like, here they are. Packaging 1 and 2.

Packaging 1, opens in the center, binded in the middle, holding the Batik protective casing inside. With Batik cloth as cushion.

Packaging 2, holding the DS Pouch inside. Also Batik inside for protective cushion. Scissor like opening style, also binded in the middle. See through for easy browsing for customers, so they can decide what they want without picking it up.

it's 1:53 PM now

Zombie.

Sooo..my first presentation for this semester earlier today. Went well I think? I tend to tremble and shake a little when presenting, or whenever faced with difficult adversaries called questions. >_>

Anyways, besides that, I have to redo most of my packaging. Lol, wth right? Well, its to be expected. I spent RM150 on printing 3 pieces of paper. Do you know anyone who spends that much on printing? I'll have to spend another RM150 this time around. Sweet.

I haven't had any sleep for nearly 30 hours or so. In fact I was so exhausted the moment I came home I changed and crashed onto my bed. Just woke up a few minutes ago and now I'm hungry and going out to dinner with the rest of my fellow designers who have just woken up as well.

I have a freaking headache, and having a lot on my mind isn't helping with that at all. Right now, I'm thinking of whether or not I should attend tomorrow's class. Another presentation, but this one shouldn't be that bad. I think.

Well, I suppose I'm going off now? I saw some messages left for me on MSN.. hmm. Alright, night folks. Did I mention I hate craft? Lol. Yeah I did. *looks at previous post* With a passion.

it's 1:44 AM now

Monday, September 08, 2008

Life sucks, SPORE and many more.

It's not fun being like this. Didn't ask for this. Forced into this.

So what's the big idea tonight? I have absolutely no clue. Gossip Girl S2E01 is out. Waiting on Heroes, How I Met Your Mother and GA now.

Tonight? Packaging. When due? Wednesday. Percentage done? No clue. Progress? Sketch, measurement, design in mind. Photoshop/Illustrator? Not started. Materials? Got some. Feeling now? Absolutely miserable.

I hate craftwork with a passion. That's right, its bolded. *gasp*

Anyways, life sucks bla bla. I'm done blogging. Not quite?

Non SPORE players might want to pick that game up. 30USD, or just go dl it off some random torrent site. Awesome game. Quite the distracting mechanism.

it's 12:37 AM now

Friday, September 05, 2008

It's Time..

Forget what I've said in my previous entries. I suppose it's about time I do something about it...Can't sleep still. But I'll try.

it's 4:56 AM now

Mental Torture

..is far more painful than physical torture.

Dunno how long more I can keep this bullshit up. Sometimes I get tired of it, but I get back on my feet anyways. But I find it so hard to do that for some other things that should be of more importance.

Is there an easy way out that doesn't involve a lot of pain and suffering? I doubt that. But then again...

Anyways. Jump Ultimate Stars. Hikaru no Go. Assignments. Help me from losing my mind.

That's right folks. It's emo season. What with the weather, my surroundings, and possibly my new blanket, all don't seem to be helping the bright ray of effin' sunshine to stay in place long enough.

I seriously need to deal with my issues. Is there someone knowledgeable with regards to cloning or matters of the universe around to assist?

Meh, It appears that I'm suffering from acute withdrawal syndrome.

Sigh. So many things to say. But no, I can't be too honest with myself. Because that would make other people's lives suck. And so I remain shrouded in the mists of insanity, faltering between the line of responsibility and defeat. But seriously, I feel like running away and disappearing from the world right now. Seeking attention right now? Maybe. Anyways, back to attempting suicide by not sleeping at all. Too many questions I don't have answers to, and only one thing I want in life I can't get. Night folks.

it's 1:42 AM now

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Hmm, feeling lifeless today. So dead inside. It's probably the weather getting to me. Or is it?

To be completely honest, I guess it isn't. I'm just like this because I'm depressed about something.

Yeah, you know it. One person drives my whole life into chaos. Ah great, the weather just got worst. Way to darken the rest of my day.

I'm at the point where even assignments can't occupy me enough. I'm not sure really. What's going on? Paranoia? Lol, anyways, I can't sleep. And I don't think I'll be even touching my assignments today. Feel like lazing around.

Good Night.

it's 12:33 AM now

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Random

It's a freaking new month, hurrah? I haven't got a haircut yet. Hmm, might be getting our TV this month. Phillips: 29 inches or 32 inches? I'm midway of doing my research on cultural performances and posters now. I'm thinking of doing some martial arts poster, but that's still not confirmed. I need to find models, props, costumes and whatnot. And that's all gonna cost some grease.

Anyways, I'm almost done with my 1st assignment project, which is the product and packaging design. Well, let's say Product is 100% completed, but my Packaging is at about 30-40%? Heh, damn frustrated. Haven't finish this one already get new stuff to work on.

Lately a couple of things have been bugging me..But ah well, best not mention it. Haven't been getting enough shuteye lately either. Sometimes its just because of sleepless assignment nights, sometimes its well..you know. I just don't wanna drift off into some bad dream and wake up in cold sweat and feeling nauseous.

Alright, I guess I'm off for now. Need to get back to researching before I hit the sack. Night folks.

it's 1:47 AM now

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

First Time Marker Rendering

Bear with me, my first time marker rendering for my Illustration 2 Module. It's greytone rendering, took me about two nights to finish, with some guidance from Sean. Anyways, submitting this tomorrow morning. Finished it a while ago. I'm not satisfied, but I'm out of time. I guess I'll have to make do with this and do better next time. Well, leave your thoughts, nights. I suppose it looks about 60-70% like the model.

it's 4:45 AM now