Shinocturne

Ba-dump. Ba-dump. Just some experiments on Photoshop. Lol. Yeah yeah, if I have free time to play around why aren't I doing my assignments. Haha, I'm getting to it. Got a project to design a CD Cover, CD Design, CD Jacket and whatnot for class. At the same time I'm doing one for Louie's acoustic album as well. I don't know if I should integrate but I guess not, might get in trouble if I do so. Too much hassle writing references and stuff. Well, I'm off to bed now, just watched the Naruto Shippuuden Movie. I thought it was a bit overrated personally.

it's 2:53 AM now

Monday, April 28, 2008

It's almost 5am. But I'm bored, and I'm sleepless. What do I do? Assignments? Nah, I can't focus right now. So what am I doing anyways? Just reading. Reading up some old books. I still have The Da Vinci Code that Manzy bought for me. Guess what I found as one of the bookmarks? Min's picture from Form4's Prom. I forgot I left it there. Guess my mom didn't bother removing the bookmark when she passed the book to me. Gah, that really burned a hole in me tonight. I'd say that was the happiest day of my life really. And now it's nothing but a distant memory. Sad, but ah well. I suppose I could deal with some shuteye. Pray I sleep well tonight. Got class around 2pm.

it's 4:44 AM now

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Soup.

In my mind now.

1. Its 4am, again.
2. Got class later.
3. I hate acrylic.
4. Can't forget that girl.
5. Define 'Hellish Nightmares'.
6. Got project for Album Cover and CD Cover.
7. I want to sleep.
8. Turn back time?
9. Can't sleep right.
10. God, show me the way to peace.

it's 3:37 AM now

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

it's 4:59 PM now

The Fray - How To Save A Life lyrics

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

it's 2:39 AM now

Monday, April 21, 2008

I learned something. Don't miss whatever opportunities or chances that are given. Because you don't want to hate yourself for the rest of your life, wondering what would've been or could've been if only you've done things differently, if only you hadn't chickened out on something big.

Got someone you love but you haven't told them yet? Go tell.

Got someone you wanted to confess to but afraid to do so? Give it a shot.

Wanted to make a difference in someone else's life? Just do it.

Was there someone you haven't reconciled with? Why not?

Something that you could've fought for but gave up on? Fight for it.

Don't live your life looking back. Don't miss out on anything.

I know some people say 'live with no regrets', but isn't it easier said than done sometimes? The only way to live that way is to make the present different. Is it wrong to regret? No, it isn't. Take it as an incentive, learn your mistakes, do it right given the next chance. After all, He gives us a life full of opportunities and chances, it's only up to us if we want to take it. They say, 'you only live once', which is about right, so doing things to shorten your life span can only be justified as stupid actions. But I'm in no place to judge of course, having done some stupid actions myself.

What about me then? I know I missed out on a lot. Pray to God I have more opportunities coming my way.

Good Night all.

it's 2:02 AM now

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Pictures of Penang Trip

Someone looking up Kek Lok Si Pagoda. (Actually Sean. Lol)

Random person picking up seashells on Fringgi Beach.

Just a side view from the steps of Kek Lok Si's Pagoda.

View of Kek Lok Si from slightly afar. Temple area btw.

The famous Kek Lok Si Pagoda.

Kek Lok Si prayer area again.

One of them stone monuments.

Lower Garden area of Kek Lok Si.

Actually a water fountain, and those glass things have some statues in them.

Large place to put incense, don't you think? Lower Garden area.

I say RAWR.

As I was walking up them steps.

Straight road up to Kek Lok Si?

Interesting view. Rule of 3rd anyone?

Burning incense in front of prayer area.

In front of prayer area looking off towards the Pagoda.

And it suddenly got dark? Nope, I messed with my camera's settings to get this effect.

Ah, random family at Fringgi Beach.

Whoosh!

Looks like a place where couples sit under the tree and make out, IMO.

Gasp! The sun!

No, the rod is not attached to his *cough*. Just fishing ah uncle?

Rock.

Rocks again?

And rocks.

Beckham (Edmund) taking my picture.

Yummy Ais Kacang.

THE famous Penang Char Kuey Teow, Lorong Selamat. See how big the prawns are?

The lovely auntie who makes our Kuey Teow.

Char-char-charcoal?

Sizzling good.

The places, the people and the food of Penang. None of my new haircut yet, but soon. Enjoy.

it's 5:15 PM now

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Digging Up Old Stuff

You look at me how you want to,
Judge me by how I look and not what I do.

Always thinking that I'm nothing more inside,
Forgetting who was always there when you cried.

Looking down upon me and my heart,
Then later blaming me for not playing my part.

You think you're strong, you think you're tough,
But now you know you're not smart enough.

All the while playing me as a fool,
Sitting on your high throne acting all cool.

Put you ahead of me, fulfilling your greed,
Put myself behind you, ignoring my need.

For all I've done I get no gratitude,
Instead you put on your dumb attitude.

Take your things away and don't come back,
I can't keep making up for the things you lack.

Don't come running when you need someone,
Between you and me, what's done is done.

(Just looking through my old Word files, thought I'd put this up for kicks. Enjoy.)

it's 10:29 AM now

New Test Up Out of Boredom

Create your own Friend Test here

Do partake.

it's 2:56 AM now

Friday, April 11, 2008

Rawr.

Ah..life is okay. I think I'm doing fine, but not excellent. Maybe I put too much pressure on myself, but sometimes I feel that what I'm doing currently and what I can do is nothing to be amazed of and nothing to be impressed about.

I know I have to do better, not only for my sake, but for a lot of reasons..like my parents having a lot of faith in me, and me being myself wanting a family in the future should work harder if I'm even planning to have kids. Yeah, okay, that's skipping ahead a bit too far..but still. It's what I've always been doing, planning ahead.

Then again, because I plan ahead too much the present always seems to be messed up. After taking a step into 2008, I've realized that I made a lot of mistakes in judgment, thinking that things will be easier from now on. Boy, was I wrong. First off my assignments weigh so much heavier than I imagined. Second, moving into a new place may seem great, but if you've seen my place you might think that it was better off I stayed where I was (if there wasn't any theft and if the place wasn't sucking my wallet dry like the vampires that they are.)

Mmm..Illustration still sucks for me. I'm glad I don't have to take it anymore after next semester, because I'll be shifting into my major which is Graphic Design : Multimedia..which has a lot of yay-ness in it because its mainly computer stuff..which I don't think I'll have any problems with unless I become a computer at the end of 2008.

Just finished my mascot and poster presentation today, and I guess it went okay. I got 5 bonus marks for turning up early =D But then again my design got fired at and along with some of my classmates I had to change the design, reprint and resubmit it. (That's a lot of money, mind you.)

Inevitably, we have also received our FINAL freaking assignment for Design Studies, which was given to use BEFORE we even presented..adding up to some of our total stress levels. It's brochure design + merchandising or product branding whatnot..supposed to be done in InDesign which we are not proficient at yet.

And here's a link to my DevArt..which features my Mascot and poster design. This is v2 (finalized) by the way, if you want to see v1 just scroll through my gallery. Shouldn't be hard to find. Again, if your design senses are keen..I think you'll spot a lot of mistakes in my design..as pointed out by my lecturer.

http://nocturnalseasons.deviantart.com/art/Wild-Channel-Skate-Expo-V2-82444105

Good night folks.

it's 2:13 AM now

Monday, April 07, 2008

Falling Out of Grace

She cries as he walks away,
She shouts but he just won't stay.

Every night she dreams of his face,
Wondering how things fell out of place.

She's thinking if she's lost her flair,
She asks for love but he just won't care.

She longs for love and his warm embrace,
As she spends her time staring off into space.

She knows that he's not hers no more,
The moment that he walked out the door.

She sits idly by the fireplace,
Her broken heart giving up the chase.

She's silent as she tries to keep it strong,
But all the same thinking what she did wrong.

Tears fall silently, as she quits this race,
She takes her life as she falls out of grace.

Just a little something because I got bit by the emo bug again.

it's 4:19 AM now

Friday, April 04, 2008

Up Again, As Usual.

Well, it's a new fresh month of April, although I don't see the difference from any months..at least probably not yet. April Fools is in, is on, and has happened to me. 3 times fooled on the first day of the month. Two of the pranks probably weren't really funny or appealing, maybe because I wasn't into it much. (Two things you should never joke about : Food and Assignments)

Anyways, it's 4am. I'm up doing an oil pastel drawing..which is about 40% done? I guess. Won't finish anytime soon but it's due sooner than it's gonna be completed so what can I do? My download for the Step Up 2 The Streets OST Part 2 is just done. For some of you who don't know, they released the first half of the OST right after the movie, has Track 1-16. Track 17-39 just got released a while ago..without me noticing. Anyways, I'm enjoying the songs..especially Bounce, by Timbaland featuring a bunch of people. (JT, Ms Elliot and Dr.Dre I think).

Ah well, I have a lot more to say but I don't have the will to list down all of that crap now. Better get back to work then. Life's just beginning eh? I'd hate to imagine when I go out to work next time and my life depends on a project that would probably cost me my job if I don't do well...Night folks.

it's 4:02 AM now