Shinocturne

One of my latest assignments. Choose a typeface (fonts, for those who are unfamiliar with this term) and make a newsletter for it. Well, after hours of research, planning, sketching and Photoshop (supposed to use Illustrator, but what the heck.) I completed it earlier today at 4am. Constructive comments are welcome. These are A4 size by the way. Pages are in order.

it's 5:14 PM now

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Stolen IP Address

Yeah, that's what I suspect. Twice. One more time and if I find out who, he or she is going to pay the price. On both occassions where the person has used my IP and Name to tag sites, both were times were I was not present at home and so weren't my housemates, and on the 2nd time, my laptop wasn't even home, plus nobody was home either. I suspect that its either because I have turned off my firewall lately, or perhaps someone has planted a spyware/trojan in my computer. Also probably a 3rd party program rerouting their address through mine. Going to find out now. I'd very much like to ignore it but its getting pretty annoying seeing something that I DIDN'T tag. I might got ask my ISP for the IP Log Activity List thingie. Then we'll see.

it's 5:12 PM now

Fuck Off.

Okay, so I can't let go of it. Can YOU let go of it if it was YOU? God damnit, not fucking easy to get dumped AGAIN alright? Don't say it so easily, let go of it, let go of it, when its TWO fucking years of my life and then all of the sudden it fucking crashes down into fucking hell again. Why don't YOU fucking try to go through this YOURSELF, while trying to cope with other things at the same time and trying to pretend to try to be OKAY to PLEASE other people? Try giving your ALL, try COMMITTING and being SERIOUS and SELF-SACRIFICE. Sure, NOBODY told me to do it, but I did it because I'm STUPID and I LOVED HER. So YES, I am STUPID because I LOVE someone and I am stupid for still LOVING. And I'm STUPID for STILL HELPING HER NOW, no? Alright? Are you happy? Should I elaborate more about it? HMM? Not EVERYONE goes through the same things when breaking up, isn't that obvious enough? Just because you took your giddy time and found someone new in split seconds, doesn't mean I can do the SAME because apparently I CAN'T. At least I'm TRYING TO MOVE ON DAMNIT. DON'T CONDEMN ME FOR HAVING FEELINGS, last but not least.

Good Night and fuck you. I shouldn't have wasted my time talking to you because you seemed like you probably cared.

People say there are two things that are INFINITE : The universe and human stupidity, and I'm not so sure about the universe anymore, don't you agree?

it's 2:03 AM now

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Warning.

Someone has been dancing around with my identity and IP address. I don't know who, but if I find out, beware.

it's 11:25 PM now

Birthday GangBang

And the end result, lol. Sorry, no subtitles for youtube videos. Get a cantonese friend to translate for you. XD

it's 2:37 PM now

Monday, September 24, 2007

Random Things.

1) Thinking of you just fills my heart with hatred and anger, although you don't deserve it, and maybe you do not realize whether you've done anything wrong or not. Your friend has indirectly screwed my life over by saying stupid things, that changed many things. If it is possible, I would like to sit down with you and have a chat until I find my peace. Although the most likely thing to happen is you mocking me and you ending up in a wheelchair and having experienced the scariest moment of your life. Your ignorance is your bliss, truly. I hope you continue not to know anything so to prevent you from feeling any damaging physical pain.

2) Thinking of you makes me want to cry and scream and not live anymore. The pain is excruciatingly painful and eventhough with time, prayer, effort, willpower, friendship, it still remains there with scars that are opened over and over with each memory being recalled unwillingly. You are ridiculously ungrateful and stupid. I want to make this go away, but its going to take more time it seems.

3) Thinking of you just makes me want to forget about you faster because you are not worth it. I don't want to waste a single braincell on you because apparently you lack them, and I don't want to decrease my intelligence to your level.

4) Thinking of you makes me wonder what I should do next. Approach? Stay away for a while? Confusion is the agenda now.

5) Thinking of you makes me feel bad, but what can I do? I'm a student, I'm doing my best, hopefully you'd support me until I graduate and surely you'll get your just rewards in the near future. (Time goes faster than everyone thinks I suppose.)

6) Thinking of you makes me want to go back to the past and have fun again, you were great, fun, and we all had good times together, all the precious ups and downs we had.

7) Overall, I hate you the most for being you. You who are too weak, lost it again, and probably having a difficult time and trying to adjust to life again. I hate you because you hate me too. I don't know what to do with you. Why don't you start thinking of answers and giving them to me?

Well, there, just ranting and expressing my frustration. The you may not be you and the you does not refer to the same person everywhere and certain you-s may refer to several different people. If you know who you are, then congratulations, I have nothing for you except maybe an apology, or thanks.

it's 2:10 AM now

Friday, September 21, 2007

死神

And so I promised pictures but I'm afraid I can't find time to slowly upload them (due to the crappy internet service here). I guess I'll just have to blog then. Hmm, something recent I did then..

Well, recently I've found myself playing a lot of dance games..influence by my mates here I guess. I suppose its less embarrassing when you're not dancing in front of certain people? I remember being a down right coward back then, ahahaha. I've been playing Para-para, Ez2Dance, and Pump It Up often. Most often being Para-para..which explains why I'm really bad at dance games involving feet movement, lol. I guess this is just my substitute to exercising for sometime then.

Anyways, something else random tralala? Ah, just now when we went down to have our late dinner, 4 sizzling hot Korean girls just happened to have sat at a table behind us. Hahaha, well, unfortunately, they're close to being unapproachable. Or maybe I just didn't feel like it just now (making excuses haha.)

And uh..I'll pick a few assignments to talk about, lol. Hmm, lessee there's my integrated project where I'm in a group and this is how it goes.

1) Each group picks a country
2) Find out as much as possible about the country and its national anthem
3) Pick a phrase from the anthem and translate it into English
4) Sing the anthem in front of the class (very fortunate that my group chose to do Brunei, lol)
5) By using the phrase that we picked from the anthem, we are to design something + new concept
6) Final artform not yet decided so we're doing prelim sketches for now

Sounds easy? Lol, maybe..its interesting and all but I'm kinda stumped at my sketches now haha.

Photography, hmm, need to take another set of 60 pictures, with Auto White Balance turned off and mess around with different settings in different places.

I'm too lazy to elaborate on my other assignments..I think the rest of it is a bit too tedious and so I'm just going to end my entry here. Going to do some more assignments and then go to sleep I suppose. Night folks.

it's 12:45 AM now

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Global Warming and lots of other stuff.

Surprised with my title? Yeah well I am too. While I am typing this post a lot of the things that I will be posting might be contradicting myself.

To be honest, I am not a very green love the earth and protect it at all cost kind of person. True, I like beautiful sceneries, the blue ocean, clear skies, etc etc..you get my drift.

Just recently, Ang purchased a Documentary video on Global Warming, by Al Gore (supposedly the guy who ran for presidency against Bush, but lost), titled 'An Inconvinient Truth'. We decided to watch it in our free time (that is when we're not sleeping, eating, playing or doing assignment) and might I say that it was really amusing to watch. Not stupid or anything because its really good. A lot of eye-openers. Facts that most of us already know of plus several things that may or may not shock you depending on how much of general knowledge you read of and maybe how attentive you are to your natural surroundings.

Anyways, I think you guys should check it out, if you're not too busy with anything I guess. It might change your perspective and stuff. Too many things to elaborate from the documentary but it got me thinking for a while (and I mean a while..) about our lives. Imagine if you had several years left to live your life on this planet. How would you spend it, who would you want to spend it with, and what would you do before its all gone? Repent or continue as usual? Well, this and that there area lot of things.

Well before I end my post I would like to say -There's a limit to how stupid and pretentious a person can get in life. And before saying or announcing things to the bloody public, please read and re-read what you are going to announce, and look back in your life and then see what the fuck is wrong with what you are about to say.-

Next blog will have pictures on a trip I had over the weekend plus some other stuff. Tune in =O

it's 3:05 AM now

Monday, September 10, 2007

What is this?

What? What is this? Why is it that its 7.45am in the morning and I'm in my living room, tears flowing down my cheeks. My tears are dripping onto my pieces of artwork that I've been working on for hours. This melancholic feeling coursing through my veins, the old wounds, all still taking time to heal? When can I change this stupid pathetic rhythm into a better sounding melody? Why can't I lock my thoughts out? Can't stop thinking about the past...Sigh. I've got class in a few hours. Going to shower soon and get ready and finish up my work. Wish I could surgically remove my problems.

On the brighter side, I have a new friend. Hint is, it's black, has a pencil and has two screens to go with it. It blinks and cheers brightly when I turn it on. I spend some time with my new friend when I'm feeling pressured but unfortunately my new friend is low on battery at the moment.

Take care folks, I'm going to do my work somemore before showering.

it's 7:39 AM now

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Tired tired tired

I'm so tired. I feel like sleeping. I wanna put down my pencil and just snore away. Rahhh. I have 8 pages of comic to draw and line later on. I have to colour the damn thing tomorrow. I have to submit and present it the day after tomorrow. I have to proof my typography stage 4 soon. I don't know when I should go look for him because I've missed class for 2 days. Oversleep because I sleep at 7am and I usually don't manage to wake up either because I don't hear my alarm or I'm already dead asleep. Stress. Rahhh. I wanna kick something, punch someone. I've got life drawing class tomorrow and we have to draw people's faces, portraits etc. And its bugging me because I haven't had much practice. After submitting my 60 pictures for photography, I have to take another set of 60 this time portraying things of various colours. Hmm, I think I'm going to faint. Anyways, good news. I have a new headset, yay. Sonic Gear, lol. I'm getting a 2GB Sony Mp3 player, yay. I'm getting a DS Lite nextmonth yay. Anyways, thats about it. I'm still alive, another good thing I suppose, but at this rate, I might as well stuff my eyes and nose with pencil and go drown in watercolour.

it's 1:57 AM now

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Well, as you all know my schedule has been pretty hectic as of late. The people who should know this best are my classmates and housemates naturally. I'm not saying I'm a dead-to-rajin person but at least I find time to do my work and I do it just fine. I can't say I'm doing my best because really, sometimes there's not enough time to do my best. Well, recently I've only been doing several things. That's eat, sleep, assignment, workout, and PS2 whenever I can. Anyways, I'd so love to take a vacation and shit but yeah, I'll get my holidays in December I suppose. I'll be going back to Brunei briefly, and then maybe go to Korea and visit Jae-Bong there. (That's Jang, my housemate, I think I'll refer to him as JB from now on, haha..) Then maybe go back to Brunei again, hang out and then come back to M'sia to work or something. (I've got a 3 month break if I'm not making a mistake!) Anyways, bla bla bla, I'm basically not really in the mood to have a long blog entry. Really tired. I slept at 7.30am this morning, finished 3 assignments, at the cost of missing class. But luckily I managed to submit my works with the help of my housemates. GG-ed 60 pictures, lol, submitted the CDR to my lecturer, and my ERS class is basically clear, but too bad didn't get to see my bend-over lecturer today huahuahuahua...Well, good night folks, its 3.46am right now. Gotta catch some shut-eye.

it's 3:15 AM now

Burn My Dread

Dreamless dorm, ticking clock
I walk away from the soundless room
Windless night, moonlight melts
My ghostly shadow to the lukewarm gloom
Nightly dance of bleeding swords
Reminds me that I still live

I will burn my dread
I once ran away from the god of fear
And he chained me to despair

Burn my dread
I'll break the chain
And run till I see the sunlight again

I'll lift my face and run to the sunlight

it's 3:08 AM now

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Pictures

These pictures are taken using ISO sensitivity 200 and 400, White Balance set at Auto, Image Quality is Basic, and Image Size Small, Noise Reduction on. Although of course, some pictures vary because I have taken them in different situations. No Photo-Manipulation involved. Enjoy and do comment, haha. All taken in different shutter speed and aperture was also different in each, just to add.

Well, this picture was taken around 10pm I think. Its the moon actually, and since I can't control my hand from shaking while I take the picture, the lighting is a bit distorted as you can see from the city lights. The moon at the moment was actually reddish orange in color for a brief moment until 11+ and then reverted back to its original color. I don't think its visible from Brunei though. Anyways, I had to stand still for 13 seconds to take this picture, to gather enough light in. Shutter speed was 13 seconds and aperture exposed to max already T_T...

it's 5:49 PM now