Time flies by really fast doesn't it? A while ago it seems like I was doing my PMB, and then a while ago I just nearly assaulted one of my teachers, and a while ago I just met Min, and a while ago, I confessed to her, and a while ago we were really happy, and a while ago I was cruising through 2006 with my best mates in Form5 despite O levels. In a blink of an eye, all this happened.

Today ended pretty quickly too.

Things are getting pretty stressful. Not only for me, but for my mates here as well, classmates, housemates. Not easy really, but nyeh, its not meant to be easy I suppose. Some people assume its super easy.

The past few days I've been unwell, but have to push myself to try to finish as many assignments as possible. Do understand, its not easy to put down the pencil and give excuses to the lecturers, and I didn't ask to fall sick during these times.

The tension is high, we're bickering at each other and beating each other up senseless at times here. Sometimes you want to take a chair and throw it out your window or something (which happened on the 6th floor, someone actually did that out of stress.)

People are switching courses, quitting their education, for more than one reason. Some people have to cope with multiple problems, this and that. Relationship tension, family tension, friends going at each other, well..many more.

Recently, and almost everyday, there comes the time I wish things were okay again. I wish Min hadn't left me just like that, I wish I wasn't under so much pressure. It's like, there's an empty hole in my heart, which I'm not sure what I can do with it. The comfort that I had, the warmth, all turned negative. I'm losing my temper more frequently, having a lot of angry thoughts, but all I can do is bottle up as much as possible.

Everyone is going through something I suppose. Argh, I wish I could just punch someone, something. The blood that is coursing through my veins, filled with so much pain and wrath. What to do..what to do. Do I endure it and ignore it, until I eventually stop caring about it? Can I? Well, god knows.

Sleepless when I need to sleep, assignments when I am tired, dumped when I need love, I wonder how bad things will get from here onwards, or when a tide of good things will come wash me clean again. I observe Larrie...and it pains me how he's endured waiting that long, and how he's got nothing in return. I wonder...what can I do? What should I do? Hahaha..well, good night, I suppose I should stop here.

it's 2:30 AM now