Things have been mostly down for me as of late. I started Uni again today. Woke up like around 7-ish because someone's phone kept going off with 3 different songs as alarm. One of them I didn't really like in particular. At about 7.30 I gave up on sleeping and went to take my shower. After that nothing much. We left for campus and attended the faculty meeting in our Life Drawing Studio, got our timetables and stuff.
I got 7 subjects now, brilliant really. (*hint of sarcasm*)
Effective Research
Life Drawing 2
Creative Studies 2
Design Studies 2
Photography
History of Arts
Malaysian Studies
Yep, thats 7.
Other than Uni, I can't really go online often due to the fact that my line is down. Now I'm borrowing another unit's connection for a while, just to post this blog entry.
Really, I really don't like being alive lately. Its like walking on a hell on earth. But I guess I should count myself lucky, I guess. I can't sleep properly, can't eat properly, can't even be a proper person. I've been falling sick a lot lately, headaches, dizziness, nosebleeds, minor fevers. I'm not sure if I should be worried or not but I'll go for a checkup eventually.
Well I paid my educational fees, and I have yet to pay for my accomodation fees. Soon I have to purchase my own DSLR for my Photography Class, and hmm buy something to entertain myself. (*hint* DS Lite *cough*)
*cough* Well, not that I am interested or not that I am bragging either but as of recently I seem to have been approached by several er girls. Lol, like I said not that I'm interested but the news that I've been dumped seems to have travelled like forest fire... Ah, its a bit annoying because I don't know if they're taking pity on me or taking advantage of me. >_> *end cough*
Hmm, its really sad. I'm still waiting for Min. Wai wa 'pathetique' desu ne? Haha, I've been picking up some Kansai accent recently...Mmm, it feels like I've lost a big part of myself, and there's still a lot of emptiness. Guess she doesn't feel the same way for me. And well, I really wish I didn't have to be this way, but this is what I'm made of. Heh..a fool indeed. Either ways, whatever decision she makes, nobody else is going to suffer any consequences cept' me but I guess its just another risk that I have to take...
Aighto, I'm ending my blog here. I'm neither 'here' nor 'there' at this point in time. Oh btw, I've got a new Motorola phone from Ang. Not exactly mine but basically mine since he's not using it but if it breaks or anything (if that's likely to happen) I'll pay for the repairs. Alright, really signing off here then. Thanks to my loyal taggers for tagging in my absence.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
What if...
Meh, sometimes I wonder how my life turned out this way. I mean yeah, I'm a 17 year old in college, doing fine, have a sort of nice family but they can be problematic at times, although I am really fond of all my cousins, both on my mom and dad's side. Besides that, I'm not poor, neither am I rich. I'm just so-so. The only thing I want right now, turned out to be a really sad pathetic excuse of a joke. I'm really confused, hurt and angry deep down but yeah, like I already mentioned before, I'm trying to move on with my life. I have a life yes, unlike others, who pass away young, without ever having the chance to fulfill their dreams and so on so forth. I've done pretty well for my first semester if I must say so myself, although it is nothing to be proud. Lately, His Majesty the Sultan of Brunei celebrated his 61st birthday. Not to make a big deal of things...but, I really hate those morons who park their cars on the side and middle of the road just to see fireworks that are nothing special because every year we see the same damn thing AND they have the really stupid police force that has two consecutive road blocks on the road which are not so far apart. Gah, bloody stupid. What's the point of that?
Okay, with that aside...
I really wish I could just let it go so easily and be happy with my life but it's not that easy. It really is easier said than done. It's not that I'm not trying, alright? Don't give me that crap that I need to have a positive mindset to make it work. I'm positive enough as I am now. I'd elaborate but I'd rather not pollute my entry right now. It's amazing how I can feel bad enough before I came to Brunei and feel worst when I'm about to go back to KL. I just had to be that fool that wanted to trust you eh?
I went hiking with Burt yesterday, we climbed about 7 hills. I think we would've done 9 but I wasn't up for it, and uh around the 6th hill I think, I slipped and injured my ankle. That plus my neck was already sore since the morning so it was difficult for me to look up and down. T'was alright, since I haven't hiked in a long time.
Today, its the 18th. That marks my first whole month being a single bastard, lol. Well, not that I had a 'real' girlfriend while I was in KL for 3 months anyways. Ahaha...sad.
Strange how I'm still so nice to Min and waiting and yeah..you get my point. Burt's about to arrive and pick me up so I guess I'll leave the blog at this. I'll blog again when I have the time. Maybe more wallpapers and photos...Night.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I haven't had any sleep in the past I dunno..several hours? Since 12am, all the wall until now, 7.48pm. I feel dizzy, and thirsty all the time no matter how much water I drink. My dad is taking us out to dinner in a while. Oh, we had breakfast this afternoon at the new foodcourt in Gdg. Its not bad.
Monday, July 09, 2007
Wallpapers
Two new wallpapers, both in MT as well. One is of C.C from Code Geass, a really nice anime to catch if you can. The other is of Bumblebee, from the recent Transformer movie. Enjoy, and do leave comments.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
How to Save a Life?
Today's the 7th of July, 2007. Thats 7/7/7 for you. Well, for starters, I've been sleepless for nights. So around 2am I was awake, making a wallpaper, I will post links and images later. I finished my wallpaper around 5am, and tried to go to sleep.
I woke up at 8am-ish, showered and got ready. After that I left for Bandar's Coffee Bean, where I met Sufi, and I ordered my drink. Chen Hui, Larrie, Teck, Joanna, Wendy and Seng showed up slightly after. We chit-chatted, teased each other, updated ourselves on each other, ate, drank and laughed the hours away. Around 12, Teck drove us back to SGS/SAS area, and believe me, to fit that much people in the car? That's tough. We went around, took pictures and stuff. Saw my mom, and asked my mom to take me to Gdg to meet up with Irene but my mom was busy, so I went back to my friends and they decided to go for lunch, although I was still full from breakfast. Bong came, and we split the load (Sufi went home though) and went to Qlap to eat. I drank Pearl Milk Tea and was satisfied with that. After that Teck took Wendy home, Chen Hui and Joanna went somewhere else with someone else and I followed Larrie, Seng in Bong's car to Gdg.
Had to round like 20 minutes before we found parking space. I proceeded to the Mall to meet Irene, who must've been waiting alone for a long time! (Sorry! ><) and then we uh, walked to the cinema to check for the movies, apparently all they have all day is Transformers. (Anyone else looking forward to the 2 sequels?) After deciding that we can't watch anything, we went to Unitek, where Irene bought herself some songs, and after that we went back to the Mall, to have DQ!!! XD I've been craving for Ice-cream for sometime, so yeah, hahaha I definitely enjoyed it, Thanks Irene!! =P (Also had a nice keychain thingie from her, haha XD, thanks again)
We sat there and talked for about an hour or so, until Burt showed up, and then we went round the CD shops in the Mall, checking for goodies. Burt and I, we bought 6 DVDs and split it two ways, $7.50. Thats $15 for 6 pieces of DVDs. Brilliant. I saw a copy of Devil May Cry 3, Special Edition but I hesitated to buy. Burt bought a couple of things. After that, we went to Netcom in the mall to check for computer hardware stuff. Irene had to leave shortly after that =(
Hmm, Burt and I continued our tour on electronic gadgets over at EGM and then went ahead to have dinner, well, Burt had dinner, I just drank Milo haha. Apparently, I don't have appetite nor the budget to have dinner. I haven't eaten properly lately, I can't help it, but I do eat anyways, I try. Most of you ought to know why. We ate at Lamee shop. No not LAME, but La-Mee. Yeah, weird name for a shop. After that Burt sent me home and here I am. Hahaha, thanks Burt! Right now I'm watching Ghost Rider with my brats, but I am falling asleep. Probably due to the lack of proper sleep. I might tuck in early, I might not.
I can't bear to close my eyes and have nasty flashbacks of my happy times and the things that I've gone through with Min and be happy about it. So I guess that'd be my reason for not being able to sleep. Might be stupid, but thats it. I'm trying to move on, I really am. Good night anyways.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
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Well this here is my latest wallpaper. Uploaded to Minitokyo and here's the link.
http://gallery.minitokyo.net/view/300822/
Well, enjoy. Do leave comments/questions.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
A Picture is Worth a 1000 words
