Shinocturne

Okehs~This thing FINALLY loaded. Jezzurs. Oh look, I got dc-ed again. Damn wireless. Well I should get back on in moments...I hope. Otherwise this would be posted in the morning. The net is miserably screwed up in Brunei. Just because DST monopolizes the industry for telecommunications...Ah well. They're too lazy to fix bugs, glitches and improvise on their services. Plus, they overcharge. There's B-Mobile, but they're unreasonably unreliable at times.

Hmm, what's new? I watched Death Note and Prince of Tennis Live Actions. The latter at home, Death Note I watched with my friends in the cinema. T'was okay I suppose...but the characters weren't portrayed at their best. Ah, yes, I watched Happy Feet with Min yesterday, and it was...a good movie, if it wasn't so typical. It has the Funny Scenes->Climax->Boring Stuff towards the end kind of thing going on.

I'm a BIG BIG BIG fan of Super Robot Taisen, and yes...from the title, you can see that it's about Mecha. It has got to be one of the best series of games and anime, coming from Japan. I played SRT : Original Generation 1 and 2 on the GBA lately, and Super Robot Taisen J. You can look it up in Wiki if you wish. Well, the anime for OG has been released just recently, RAW up to Eps8, and Subbed at Eps6.

I'm currently working on several wallpapers for MT, just to get my artist ranking up, its at 33 now, my latest wallpaper being a SoiFon one, from Bleach. I intend to do at least 3 more, give it a rest and do some other design related stuff. I'm of course, no where as good as my cousins are, but I'm giving it my best shot. Sooooo...anyone want to hire me? XD I do wallpapers, avatars, siggies...online, and business cards, name cards, picture editing, tickets, brochures, articles, and logos, IRL. I do charge..of course, not online, but IRL, reasonably, depending on the difficulty of the task. Also, I don't print, sorry =\ My printer sucks, its colourless...plus I don't have a scanner.

Ah, what else? Yes, I'm still not reconnected. Min hasn't called today, so I guess she's tired. Haha, sleep well dear... Hmm, I guess this will be posted in the morning.

Just a couple of minutes ago I did some concept character art for an RP I'm in, Relic Hunters..I'm hoping to scan them in some time later, and maybe do some touchups in Photoshop. I also came across several Death Note fonts, interesting..because I intend to use them for my next wallpaper featuring L from Death Note. Zzz...I'm feeling sleep. I will continue this entry the next morning. T_T

Okeh, continued..looks like internet DC again. Naweh.

CONTINUED. Now posting. XD Malas tak? I've got to school tomorrow for the Merit Presentation thingie. After that go kia kia. Huhu...tired a bit. Satu hari dah tak tido..mampus kot nanti? Lol, jk jk. Bah, posting this now. Gonna sleep, then K.O on my bed later. Good night. Will have more entries up soon...

it's 9:36 PM now

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

O for Over, and Out

Whee. I pierced my ear. Oh and O is over. Results should be out in about 3 months time. Also, I'm still waiting~ Dum dee dum~ Tomorrow, 7pm, School Dinner. Seri Kemanyan. Near my place. XD Casual Wear, just in case anyone drops by and sees this.

it's 2:45 PM now

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Tissue Anyone?

Yeah. I'm basically...crying? Can't hold my tears in anyways. Just feel like my head is about to explode, and my heart just drop out like that. Haha, anyways..we had our C.Science paper. We are SO Keh Kiang. If you know what that means, lol. The paper is 2 hours 15 minutes. And I finished in 45 minutes, slept for about 20 minutes, then came out...Lol, buncha geniuses, you must be thinking. Well, I won't go into detail there.

I'm actually in a more stable condition than I was in before, I suppose? Just that fucked up feeling still stuck there in my core, my soul. I'm waiting for an answer, and as far as I can tell..I'm being...VERY patient about it.

Ah, I hope prom turns out well..and Min can sleepover. If she's even going yeah? Haha. Well, we switched places again. Riverview this time. Boo-hoo-hoo. Principal, MOE...can just go...gah. Well, first of all, they censored my complaint letter. THE FACTS WERE CENSORED. Nope, no swearing, no bad words. Just truth. Second...they are worrying about the inevitable. The school's name being stained? It's BLOOD-stained for Christ's sake.

Well, thats enough complaining..Ahaha. I want a laptop, seriously. I'm sick of my PC freezing, and stuff... I hope I get it for Christmas (Another *hint hint~*) .. I could be happy with more books, lol. Eragon seems interesting. Death Note, well...Its good. I've read the manga, and there are some varieties...comparing to the anime AND movie. Apparently, the movie was already out long ago in Japan/S'pore/Taiwan/Hong Kong...only NOW in Brunei. God, talk about slow. The sequel is scheduled to be out next month in S'Pore..and uh..when would Brunei get it? Heh...

Okay, Final Fantasy..not bad. I want a PS2 T_T...PS3? DS? Anyone? Ahahaha...so many wants. Yet my need is still the same. And you know what it is. =\ I really find it hard letting go, and moving on. I swear, you're probably looking at the next Larrie, lol. Nah, j/k...nowhere as critical at that yet. *Positive Positive* Ahaha..yeah sure, its supposed to work. Temporarily. Help me please? Tasukete Kudasai...Boku wa...Kokoro wa chi ga demasu..ahahahaha..

Quote: "L...shiteru ka...shinigami wa...ringo ga tabemasu..?" more or less accurate. In english.. "L, do you know that...Death gods...only eat apples?" Fun really.

Good night, oyasumi. Take care, good luck..and..SIX more damn days left! Oh..if anyone can find the FULL opening song for Bleach (latest) , arigatou gozaimasen.

it's 10:56 PM now

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Insanity is Over?

Perhaps. Final Fantasy V Advance is out. Anyways, I shall be sane from now onwards. But I cannot guarantee when I will go into that kind of behaviour again. Maybe next time when I hit my limit once more. Let's see, what's new? O levels..yeah..I never blogged about that now did I? I'm doing fine, not very well, because I am unsure of the results, but fine nonetheless. I sat for English 1 and 2 today. Did pretty well, I just hope my Paper 1 survives. I have the tendency to overwrite sometimes. Tomorrow's Geo2 . Living at the moment, is no easy task for me, so much for being a teenager who should supposedly lead a happy-go-lucky, screw everything else life. Lol. I was kidding. Anyways, I suppose things are more or less under control, I am just hoping, and waiting to see what happens to the other party. It will not be easy...but yeah, you get my point. I will be patient, understanding and enduring as possible. Earlier today I had a talk with Larrie, and yesterday with Burt. (Thanks, I think I would like more Cola Lime? XD) I will be re-introducing myself in Mugen Wishes..if I find the time to blog. For now, it's Geo Geo Geo. Otherwise FFV. Toodles. Also have more artworks up in some time.

it's 12:55 PM now

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

I'm addicted..and Neglected.

What does it mean to die?

Some people say your heart stops beating, and then you just die.

But to me, it means when you stop loving. When you lose the ability to love.

Well, my life might be ending soon. I'm stranded here, maybe its not what I think it is, but I'm suffering. This sucks.

I wish I could control myself better. But I can't. I'm stubborn.

How I wish I had some kind of death sickness..Brain Tumour, Cancer..just maybe then. Maybe you'd care for me more then.

Every night I pray. Shorten my life. I don't give a crap. Just shorten my life. Even 3 days is what I have left. If you give me your all in 3 days. Then nothing else matters. I'm happy.

Maybe its a selfish, immature thought. But yeah. Or I'm just asking for too much.

I love you too much. Maybe. All the hugs in the world won't cure me now. It's too late. I'm at my limit. My whole life is flashing before my eyes. And my whole life is you. All I want to see is you. Hear you. Hug, Hold, Kiss..whatever..I just need you. Even if its for a while. Its all I need right now. I'm just so under pressure...Please don't go fucking telling me what abt next year? I won't be here and shit. Fuck, that's a totally different situation..

ARGH. So many things I want to say, I don't want to say. What if I lose you? I don't even want to go there...hahahahahaha. I should admit myself into a mental hospital. I'm at a critical point now. Sigh. I'm..out of words. I can't tell you how I feel, for many reasons. Oh..forget it. I'm through. I'm out of here. Lol, good night. Happy Belated Birthday, and Happy Belated Halloween.

His voice won't reach you anymore...

Why the fuck are you hurting him? Maybe you're not doing it on purpose..But fuck, why do you care so much what others think? Isn't he more important? FUCK PEER PRESSURE.

He doesn't fucking regret anything. He just loves you, why can't you sacrifice a bit? He's done so much for you..you know that? What is he to you? Come to your senses. While you have the chance. While he's still here, living, waiting.

You know he's always waiting right? I would probably give up, I have an effing short temper..You'd probably piss me off if I was to wait. Enough about that, just open your eyes. He doesn't want so much, he just wants you to understand him, love him. Please don't say that's too much..after all the FUCKING THINGS HE'S DONE. I FUCKING WATCH EVERYTHING. HE'S THE ONLY ONE GETTING HURT IN THIS.

Alright, fuck everybody else after this. I'm through. Just realize what you have, before you lose it. And you'll regret it if you lose him. I'm sure of it. I'm off.

it's 11:18 PM now

I'm going Insane

Well, so much about this and that. I'm going insane. So, do you think they'll toss me into a Mental Institution or something? I don't know. Other than that, I'm sick. It's called heartsick. Nevermind that, its supposed to be a happy day today..but yet, my body aches, and I feel like crying. Ah well..I just have to accept it then? Lol. I'm holding on. I'm holding on. GOD, I'M HOLDING ON. Sigh. I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I'LL LAST. I'm suffocating. Heh, must be Karma or something. It's like an internal struggle happening inside of me.

Oh, Here's another one.

Well, yes. The world doesn't revolve around me. I know, and I never expected it to. There may be certain things I cannot accept, and I will never accept. EVEN IF IT HURTS ME. That's because I'm a stubborn asshole. And that's just how I am. I'm in denial. If you're wondering, these are quick sketches done on my tablet. Lol. Enjoy. Although they may not be of such wonderful sight. At least I did not post more gruelling ones. Well, in any case..HappyBirthday Min. Love you.

it's 9:54 AM now