Shinocturne

Haha, today was a bit weird. Something funny happened, and I was slightly annoyed by it. BUT, I guess it was my fault that it happened. I had my A Maths extra class this afternoon, and I asked Jess why she was staying back too. She told me that she was gonna stay back to research a book at the library, and I remember Manzy telling me about that yesterday too. So I decided to stay back and hang around as well, but what I didn't know was that they wanted to go to the Bandar Library. So after extra class I was left there doing nothing. Walked home. On the way, I stopped by an empty field and screamed my lungs out. Of course, it may seem weird, but I was stressed. Guess I felt a little better after that. (And if Manzy is wondering, I didn't scream like ger ger)

Nooowww...Yesterday's supposed to be entry..But my lines died before I got to post it.

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I just changed my layout. My tagboard doesn't listen to me anymore. So yeah. Hope this one doesn't look to shabby. How long haven't I updated? Hm..about a week? Since the sports meet I think. Well, a few things happened, here and there. Theres this badminton tourney going on in school and I was supposed to join, but I lack confidence for the singles section. I'd try doubles, but my partner kinda backed out, so yeah, it sucks. Its hard being around people who can't make up their minds on simple things. A side note, classes lately sucked. Most of them were absolutely boring, and the teachers just kept pushing us on and on and on. We know our faults, why not just let us know, privately? Do you have to tell it to the class? Do you know pride? Well, IMHO, as a teacher, you shouldn't blame the student completely. Of course, you'd consider their families and their other responsibilities before blaming them COMPLETELY. Discipline, it plays a major role in schools. But I don't see why some teachers fuss too much about it..its not like I automatically become a devil worshipper if I spike my hair. Great gods, get a life! Honestly...One more complaint about my hair and I'm gonna pierce my ears and get tattoos..lets see how you like it...- -" Today, I got caught for having spiky hair, drawing on the table..aaand..having spiky hair, did I mention having spiky hair? No? Oh, yes I got caught for having spiky hair by the same teacher. Lets see her PROFILE.

Name - Victoriah David
Hobbies - Talking nonsense in class, judging students by their looks, drinking soya-bean, being absent minded on purpose, and her most major flaw is she emphasizes on discipline a little too much.
Interests - Gold...You heard me...Gold.
Weakness - Noise. I think she digger her ear too much and damaged it. That or its too clean and she can hear even the noises of our pens as we write.

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Yes, supposedly yesterday's entry was to complain about that particular teacher whom TODAY lectured us about not knowing how to cook and relying on maids only. But I guess her 'air muka terjatuh dari sepuluh tingkat' when most of us stood up to let her know we can cook and we actuall don't have maids XD.

Well, so on and so forth I still have a few stuff to do, projects here and there, awaiting a few things here and there...My mom said she'd pay me for tutoring my sis and bro. $100 a month. But for starters, since its not a full month, I get $25 at the end of this month. (April 30th)..

Ah...and MORE bad news. Mid-term exams date have been changed to 26th of May, instead of June 1st, which was when its supposed to be. I mean..COME ON LA! So retarded - -" Why have it earlier when you can have it later!? Grr..Guess thats all for now. So tired...cannot wri- *no battery* Zzz...

it's 11:55 PM now

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sports, Day out and Rumours...

Today, we had our annual sports day. So far, green has been unable to win the house cup. Red won this year, so hoorah. Congratulations to Manzy for winning a lot of medals for blue house. I think I stayed under the sun a little too long, past my limit. Being a guy, having a kinda weak body is embarassing. Jess came up to me a few moments before the sports meet ended, asking me whether she, Michelle, Abigail and Gretsen can hitch a ride with me later. I agreed. Bla bla bla, presentation of prizes, the events were fun, yadda yadda yadda, then it was over. Waited for my car for a while, I had to look for my sister since she was in the Red Crescent thingie, helping out the injured people. Later on we had to fit in 4 ladies and one girl into the car, which turned out okay. (my sis had to sit on michelle's lap) Arrived at Seri, they came into my home, laughed aloud and started contaminating the area. First they dropped their stuff somewhere, greeted my parents, complimented my brother for being cute and then Jess wanted to use the PC, I gave her back her CDs that I borrowed from her long ago and Michelle's maths book so she can do her homework. I went down to tapao some chicken rice (on the house, surprisingly) and I saw Chris and co. eating there (okay, uh we saw them eating there before I went down to see them again) and then brought the food up for the girls. (No bones with skin if I recall correctly) er I took a shower before I had my lunch with them. There are SOME things I was not allowed to mention because they asked me not to mention it. Oh, did I mention they abused the webcam? Lol. They put on some music, I went to do my hair, they changed in my room, my bathroom, admired the broken furniture while messing around with my little bro and yadda yadda yadda, etc. Oookay, right after the aunties were done changing and all that we went down to my dad and got him to take us to the mall. It was around 1.30PM then. Went to the mall, met up with Jaspal there (cough hack cough) and went to Chills. Okay, we didn't meet him directly, we went up and down because we thought he might me elsewhere. Back to Chills, I had vanilla milkshake, and I got brainfrozen. XD I accompanied Jess to Jaya, hoping to run into Burt at CB but he wasn't there. I suppose it was teaching hours. We went to pick up something for Jessie's bf, a ring I think and she wanted to get me a belated present, I refused but anyways she didn't get me anything there, went back to Mall, she got me something at Knic Knacs instead. A keychain. Thanks Jess. Erm, went back to Chills, watched the couples (Pam/Ken and Jas/Chelle) mess around and also watch the others get hyper by drinking SOTB. The couples went off to do their own stuff, and erm, Abigail dared herself to drink one of Jessie's famous cocktails which consisted of tissue, ash, lemon, orange skin, hot chocolate, ice and er..a lil bit of Vanilla Milkshake. She drank THREE whole sips, and wanted to go throw up after that. Haha, they rushed her to the toilet and after that decided to go down to get some candy, I paid for the bubblegum since I felt guilty XP (for asking her to drink 3 sips) And then they decided to go to Jaya again.. Followed them and watched Gretsen make weird hip thrusting gestures to annoy Abigail. When we got there...Abigail started molesting the mannequins. Some indian guys were staring at the girls, and some girls were staring at me as if the ghost of christmas past just walked past them. Anywho..back to mall, looked for the couples at Mister Pizza, Abigail pranked Michelle and Pamela (and I think the latter got a bit mad) and I went to sit down witht he couples for a while cuz I can't keep chasing the other hyper monsters around with a headache. I didn't even notice it was 3.30pm - -" Rushed to look for the monsters, found them, waited for my dad outside Chills, and erm, something interesting happened but I'm not allowed to mention that either. Haha..Dad came, back to Seri, the girls got their stuff, my mom gave them some Nana cakes and off they go, while I sit here to update. XP...And something about rumours about me in ISB..I dunno..well, I confirm one thing though. The sasak-ing girl doesn't like me haha..she likes some guy from Britain I think. So yeah, thats a relief. Ciao. Have a nice day and thanks for reading.

it's 5:24 PM now

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Boooringgg weekend...

With a lot of things happening lately..I dunno what mood I'm in. I guess its..unpredictable? I have to hold back the urge to scream out my lungs..but I'm afraid my neighbours won't like it. I had an excellent dinner, so I guess I'm quiet full.

My mom saved some Lamb Chop for me cuz she thought I was gonna use them for barbeque..But..a few pieces? What good is that? Haha..well, I guess its of SOME use. If there is a BBQ, its gonna be at Muara Beach..since it has designated places for BBQ. I wonder if anyone is willing to go. Might be the day after sports day. 6PM to whenever you wanna leave. Yes, I'm serious. But so far, the plan is not going so well. We don't even know whos going and whos not, and whether we have enough $ for food and all that. (Martel anyone?)

I look around and I noticed that many people are getting into relationships lately. Strange. And I remember a few who told me that they weren't ready for guys/girls at THAT age. Now. Poof. Its amazing. Truly.

*washes hands* I just threw the trash out. Phew. Running up and down the stairs. I'm out of shape, should really go out and excersice a little more often. My reflexes are dying away. I think. I should follow my dad to badminton sometimes. The way he tortures me to run a lot just to return his hits. My mom is telling me I should re-discover my martial arts skills. Gah...but...I'm so lazy.

Well sports day is coming up, and I'm not involved in anything. I should at least help with something. I guess I'll attend. I wanna see what the cheerleaders are gonna do this year. Time passed so quickly. Its like it was only yesterday that I had waited anxiously for my PMB results.

BTW..I'm looking for a good place to have Add maths/D maths and Chemistry tuition...I think I need it. I'm not desperate though. Also, I don't see why people want to go for English tuition. Learning the technical way isn't so good, even if you go for english tuition for 3 years..you won't improve much. Reading is the key. That includes reading English comics. Same with other languages..Latin, Japanese, French..best way is to read.

That reminds me, I have to read my 'great books'. Bah. I'll stop now. Tag me, thanks. I'm dying to find out who commented me. I have someone in mind but I won't voice it out. Anyways, byebye, and take care.

it's 7:44 PM now

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

I feel like...RAMBLING a lot right now.

Yes, just like what the title said. I just feel like rambling. Today wasn't such a bad day like the previous day. It was less stressing, but I'm afraid that I did receive some bad news today. I heard that I might be positioned LAST in class, for failing 4 papers! Yes, ME, FAIL, FOUR PAPERS, can you relate? Haha, some of you might think I'm hardworking and I study a lot but nah. I don't, not after I realized so many things around me happening, some happening too fast, and some things that were supposed to happen, haven't happened yet. You know what it feels to have an empty heart? Feels weird doesn't it? Its not heartbroken, its just a part missing from your soul. And do you know how it feels to know something thats not good, but not changeable? Sucks. I hate the system. I want to go against it. But who am I to say such things? I am an individual with no power or right to overcome the system. We live in a system where our skills are not appreciated, not polished, not sharpened to their highest potential, this is Brunei, where we don't get to hone our skills. I'm not speaking of just skills skills, but what you're best at. We're in what they call the 'assembly line' system. Everyone is said to be equal, which is why we have ONE teacher teaching us in class, instead of one teacher for 3 or 5 students. Its too tedious and consumes too much time + money. Is it true that if you're academically successful you'd be rich? I think otherwise. You have to be FINANCIALLY wise to be rich. 80% of Academically successful people such as lawyers, doctors have many debts, and are living their life in misery trying to pay off their credit card debts. Yet, they are said to be 'professionals'. Is that so? 90% of Bruneians have debts, and all these debts total up to approximately 30 million Brunei dollars. Guess where most of the debts come from? What? Yup, from the so called SMART people. They struggle their whole lives to climb up the corporate ladder, but hey, why haven't they thought of OWNING the damned ladder? I might not understand a few things, but I have thought about these things. Some people might think this makes no sense at all. Most people claim their houses to be assets, but truthfully, do you think so? Its more like a liability, this is where a major amount of money flows to, to pay rent/furniture/water bills/electric bills/phone bills...etc. Therefore, house = liability, and no I'm not asking you NOT to buy a house, I'm just saying can't we just be content with the house we have? Why expand? Why buy so many furniture if you're only living with 2 or 3 people? And another thing (XP I know, I ramble a lot) Is money the root of all evil, or is the LACK of money the root of all evil? Haha, what do you think? I'm still thinking about this one. Tag me on the board with your answers, I'd love to know. Education, education..we go to school, but all with different motives. I go to school because I'm forced to, and also to meet my friends. Why do our parents say 'Go to school, get out, find a good job, get good pay, and you'll live a happy life'? Its because of fear. The fear of us being unsuccessful. That is why we get pushed so much. I wish I could do well in all subjects, but thats impossible. I can't generate INTEREST into something I dislike GREATLY. I'm more of a linguistics person, and I hate doing too many calculations, its not that I hate to think(hey, it took a lot of thinking to write this), but some things are too complicated. Are ALL the stuff we're learning actually applied to IRL? No, Yes, No? You decide. I say No. It depends on your profession really. If you're a computer programmer, you'd definately need SETS and VENN DIAGRAMS. But what about those who are NOT programmers? What use is it to them? Are they gonna tell their parents they need a SET of I-Pods for their birthday? A SET of roses? A UNION of cars? An INTERSECTION of toilet papers? I don't think so. (phew haha, thats a lot yes?) I'm NOT implying that education is useless, but why can't we just learn what we WANT to learn? Gahhh it kills me because we're so left behind while the world is moving ahead so fast!! See, I have a Maths teacher who says we are noisy and can even hear us when we whisper, but she can't hear us when we answer our questions in a LOUD voice. Also, I have a Malay teacher who loves Brunei so much he has the national anthem as his freaking ringtone!!He's so fascinated by Brunei he won't dare say that theres any country better than this. *COUGH HACK HACK* Okay, I should stop rambling.

BTW, I had fun going out with Manzy, Jess, Michelle, Pamela & Kenny, Gretsen, Jo and Jaspal XP, I haven't forgotten yet. Well, the movie was great and all, Haha, POPCORN WARS!! *grabs a helmet and ducks incoming flying popcorn* Ciaoz~! I'll ramble more if you people want me to XP

Note - I am not a parrot. I am not a parrot. I am not a parrot. Ooops, did i repeat myself?

it's 7:37 PM now

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Figures...

Sorry for not updating in a long time. I'm just not in the mood to do anything lately. And guess what?It just got worse a few moments ago. I saw Jess online, apparently NOT. I suspected it wasn't her, since she didn't go with the usual 'OTOTO-KUNZ' or 'KEVIE-KUNZ' greeting. She didn't have her PINK text, and she didn't have her display pic doing the Shhh thing. So yeah, I played along with the fake Jess. She kept asking me to show my webcam to her, and kept asking whether I liked her or not. At the beginning I thought it was Jess pranking me, but it turned out to be Jeon. I got d/c and came back on asking who it was to confirm my guess, and I guessed right. I was really really really pissed then. I remained calm and asked him what he was doing on Jess's MSN, and he said just cuz he could he could. Then right after that, he kept asking for me to turn on my webcam. I unplugged it, told him it was busted. He thought I was a girl, then a few moments said that I was Kevin, Jess's BIG BROTHER..No idea where he got that idea from but yeah. I said I was her lil' bro and he laughed, and started rambling about Bandar guy's attitudes. How bad our attitudes were. Its like he's implementing that he's better?He said no, but the way he said it made it seem that way. Okay, I forgave that. But he went on and on and on about how high and mighty he was, about his gang being all over - Kuching, Miri, KB, KL and whatsoever. Okay, I forgave that too. I showed off a little temper, and he used that to his advantage, making me ANGRIER. Know what?He threatened to bring his gang over to dish me out. He said that I was a coward. I got pissed to the highest heavens. I started returning his comments, and he said that I should go to KB if I want to face him man to man. I told him that if he can't afford to come over here I'd understand. I think that tingled his anger too. He told me 'whu do u tink ur tokin to?' I said 'to a dumb uneducated bastard' and guess what?He started RAVING about how he's in Form5 Science, but..does that make him smarter than I am?Its not age that determine's wisdom, as far as I know. And it went on and on (ask me on MSN for more details). I didn't save the conversation. I dunno Jess, if he gets to you first, he'll tell you that I said bad things to him and such. But, it doesn't matter, I don't want to waste my breath on him. Seriously, I can't see what you saw in him. I doubt he's even honest about certain things. Peace off, I'm off to pray to cool down. (I'm not saying that I was the good guy, but I really don't like the guy, honestly)

PS - Jess, I'll have to block your MSN for the meantime cuz I won't know if its him. Sorry. And er, I'm going undercover as a girl to talk to him right now.

it's 3:15 PM now